I feel empty. I feel on the verge of oblivion. I need to say something. I need to dedicate this to someone special. Dad.
If anything should ever happen to me, you need to know this. You are the reason I've kept going. Every memory I have of you makes me feel content. You've always put me first above everything, and above your own needs and wants. And for that, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for you having to do that. I know I'm not perfect but you've taught me well. I've always aspired to be just like you, and you've influenced and shaped me more than you'll ever know or understand. You're my saviour. You've saved me from some terrible things. You've always protected me and shielded me to the best of your ability from the evil and danger of this world. You're not perfect, but I couldn't imagine you any other way. You're my hero and you're my world. The second you stop breathing is the second I stop breathing. I couldn't imagine my life without you, and quite frankly, I wouldn't want to live without you. As we say to eachother, we have an amazing bond and no one on this earth will ever be able to break that. Not even death itself.
I would die for you in a second, without a single thought. You've always mattered immensely to me and I need you to know that. You're my punk dad, and I'm your Bub. I'll always be your bub, no matter what. I promise I'll never change that way of thinking. You are paramount to me.
For peace of mind I just had to write this. If I ever die, I need this to find you dad. Any day, anything could happen to me. My necrophobia is getting worse every day and I imagine me dying more often. I trust that perhaps my best friend will share this with you if anything should ever happen to me. That's a request. I love you with all my heart X Bub
TheSimpsons8 TheSimpsons8
22-25, F
2 Responses Sep 22, 2012

I can feel the depth of pain, it's looked there's an elephant on my chest.... I can hardly breathe. It hurts.

Stay strong.

This story is so sweet and yet so sad. :/

Thanks. Yeah I know it's a bit sad :/

It's a wonderful tribute to him, but if the only way he reads it is if you're no longer with us, then I guess I can hope that he never gets to read it. If that makes sense.

It does. But I plan to write it out and leave it for him, so he can read it before. Nothing will happen to me.