Lost Interest In Life
Well for the start I'd like to say that it's not like I started feeling dead inside just recently because of some kind of event. I don't think I even remember when I began to feel like this. I was always told since I was a child that I was a weird kid but I didn't mind that. I remember myself being more social than I am now but it's like those memories are not even mine because I am a completely different person. Through my entire life I only had two good friends and I never had any urge to find any new friends. In my last five years I didn't any proper friends, I never looked for them, I never needed any. I've never fell in love or had a girlfriend. In other words I feel like I don't have any social life. Well after living this kind of life I had to "adapt" and keep everything inside. That made me to "create" a personality which I used to act normal among others and somehow move forward in life. So after living that kind of life I found the only way to keep myself sane by listening to music. Anywhere I go I have my mp3 pla
After reading all this it might not make any sense but I just wrote the way I feel.