Still My Heart Is Open
I have accepted that a person's basic nature doesn't change and part of my personality is being open to having a deep connection with another person. More than that, opening my heart and allowing someone in. I suppose the good part is that it is very rare. I am discerning and have to see an exceptional quality in a person in order to unlock my heart and let them inside. Still it's hurtful and disappointing to find you are just a part of a collection and worse still, not even the most prized in a collection. It's humiliating to believe words are sincere then pouring out your feelings only to realize the only sincere words were your own. In usual fashion I search to find the silver lining and this is it - another part of my personality is that I accept reality, let go of the hurt and move forward. It's what keeps me going every day in life. I know I am stronger than I once was and that what once could devastate me is now easier to get past. It's a sign of growth and faith in myself knowing I can handle whatever life throws at me.