Still My Heart Is Open

I have accepted that a person's basic nature doesn't change and part of my personality is being open to having a deep connection with another person.  More than that, opening my heart and allowing someone in.  I suppose the good part is that it is very rare.  I am discerning and have to see an exceptional quality in a person in order to unlock my heart and let them inside.  Still it's hurtful and disappointing to find you are just a part of a collection and worse still, not even the most prized in a collection.  It's humiliating to believe words are sincere then pouring out your feelings only to realize the only sincere words were your own.  In usual fashion I search to find the silver lining and this is it - another part of my personality is that I accept reality, let go of the hurt and move forward.  It's what keeps me going every day in life.  I know I am stronger than I once was and that what once could devastate me is now easier to get past.  It's a sign of growth and faith in myself knowing I can handle whatever life throws at me.
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2 Responses Mar 20, 2012

what a lovely story, i really like the way that you have put this together, keep yourself strong and try n keep your heart open, because you only deserve the best!<br />
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My best to you<br />
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This is quite beautiful. I can't imagine anybody I've ever known who wouldn't be thrilled to be yours... but there are fools out there I suppose...