I don't why. I teach Zumba dancing for free and I don't charge anything but I feel defeated. I want to help my parents more financially and I feel like I'm working for nothing and that other people don't even appreciate what I do. Sometimes I feel like the steps are so hard for them, when I think it's easy for me. We'll I'm 21 and they're 40-60 years old. I just feel so down right now. When they ask how much my fee is I tell them it's free coz it's not my park and the owner of the park wants me to have a permit before i charge anybody and that it will become a bussiness and they want commision of the money I'm getting and I will have compitition problems. I don't want that, but I do want to get payed for my work. :( i don't know anymore. I feel like I'm doing a nice thing for everyone, and my parents appreciates my effort to help others, but I want to help them more.

I need to lose weight and be a size 0 to get a lot of gigs for TV. I feel defeated about my weight. I'm currently 140lbs. I want to fast for 30 days. I just feel like I can help them more if I don't eat. I can get more jobs with pay that way, and I will be able to have money to pay for things they need. :( I just feel so depressed right now.
genejanexx genejanexx
22-25, F
Aug 24, 2014