It's Hard To Explain,Unless you've felt like this, I guess this will be hard to understand, hard to imagine, hard to feel. The emptiness inside me is something even I don't fully understand let alone know how to express in words. Emptiness is like an iron feather, a dark cloud - it feels so heavy yet when you stop, exhale and focus, it feels like there is nothing there, nothing in your chest. No lungs, and no heart. I can't feel my heart, it's like I don't have one at all. It feels like I want to cry, but nothing ever comes out. And it feels like I'm not here, I'm existing but not living, not feeling. It is constantly there, no matter what I do, no matter what other emotions I feel or fake, it is always there.
I'm scared it will never go away.