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Breakable

The only time you can truly understand how this feels like is if you have been there yourself.

I feel like I'm about to cave in, there's just nothing on the inside.
No emotion, no heart, no soul, no life. Just nothing.
It kinda of makes me feel highly breakable, like one strong emotion could tear me apart. .
I've felt emotion before, but now it's disappeared, I only know one person who has been able to bring it back.
But it makes me feel alone, hurt, breakable, like nothing, barely a shadow, a wisp of smoke.
Just nothing but a hollow and empty shell of (barely) a person.
ImOkayNow ImOkayNow 16-17, F 2 Responses Sep 25, 2011

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for me the most horrible thing is, that I don't feel much on the outside too. Just empty life's and believes walking by, every aspect of life just an illusion. I don't know if has to do with black & white thinking, because there's none of both, no light or hope or believes or ideals that you can cling yourself to anymore, because none of everything makes any sense anymore.<br />
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It doesn't feel like freedom too, because I just can't feel, what it really is anymore, apart from just happy moments passing by where you can feel free for a second.<br />
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Maybe this is just a necessary phase of developing into another person. But everything hurts sometimes and I don't know where and how I can develop into that person. I used to draw and paint, I used to make music, now sometimes when I'm in my darkest spot nothing feels good anymore, about art and music.

i have felt it, is hard, but is something we have to learn how to deal with... u are very young, try to find yourself..=)