I Feel I Don't Matter

I think that we both deserve an oscar or something. Do you think that there are many others who are in our situation and who feel the same way as we do inside?

Hi Aquarius, I am so sorry not to have written sooner, but I wasn't notified that you had replied to my last comment.

It helps me to know that I am not the only one who feels so dejected and alone. So often I put on a happy mask with people, while inside feeling that I am dying of emptiness. It is good to be honest for once about how it really is.

Hi Aquarius, it is hard isn't it. People with a good support network behind them don't really know what it feels like to be in our situation. It is hard to keep going from day to day while feeling the way we do, and when others trivialise the situation it hurts a lot. I hope it helps you to know that you are not alone in your feelings.

I feel that I don't matter either. If I died tonight, it wouldn't really affect anybody else, as I have no close family and my friends have their own lives. I try not to think about it, but it does come into my mind every day at one time or another.