I'm Just There.

When I'm with people, I don't do much. I talk quite often, but it's just noise. Nothing funny or quotable.

I don't know what lead to me being this way. I don't have much confidence...but neither do all the "amazing" people. I'm a huge perfectionist...that's probably it. I just want to be one of those "amazing" people. Someone always envied. Someone who everyone loves. I know that I shouldn't be worried with things like that, because you can't make everyone love you, but whatever. Anything is possible, isn't it?

Basically, what I do in a normal day of talking to people is copy their personalities for that moment. I do what they do, say what they say, because I don't feel like I'm good enough. I've never really had a personality. I was just random.

I'm trying to find myself but it's so difficult. I know that there's a person deep inside me who doesn't care about impressing everyone, or doesn't care about being wrong, or any of that. I just can't communicate and agree with that person yet. Sigh...

Spazzerelly Spazzerelly
13-15, F
Feb 28, 2010