It Wasn't Always Like This...A few years ago, an event occurred that utterly destroyed everything I thought I was and everything I believed to be true. My entire identity was effectively damaged. Like a computer hard drive that dies, only fragments of mostly unusable data remained.
The events the followed, along with the people involved, began to shape me into somebody else. Somebody I didn't recognize with ideas and values that were not mine. The only thing of me that remained was the feeling of love I had for another. This love has nearly ended me. It does not fit in with the rest of my new programing and, like a common virus, is slowly killing me.
I am not who I was but that is not to say that I like who, or what, I've become instead. Rarely are we given the opportunity to start over again with a completely clean slate, but by allowing the outside influences and evils of others to infiltrate this new and clean environment I am fearing that I have allowed myself to evolve into something much worse than I was.
Luckily, I am not complete yet. There are still many things missing or that haven't been replaced yet and I am hoping that when I am finally finished being reprogrammed, I will emerge as somebody better than I was.
BohemianTragedy 46-50, M 0 Dec 29, 2012