The Void

im sitting here writing this, smokin a black & mild...

I cannot escape these feelings of being incomplete...

perhaps because I lack everything I need in life that I feel would make me complete...

I wonder why for a chosen few life is beautiful and for others like me life is a living hell.

All my life since I was 11 Ive said to myself "this isnt life"  "there has to be more" 

14 years I have searched non-stop for what my life is missing, I am convienced that

its my fault... somewhere somehow I  did something wrong and living a life where no one

understands or even tries to show compassion as to why I am the way I am is my curse.


ThaLonelyStoner ThaLonelyStoner
22-25, F
1 Response Mar 22, 2009

to suggest what you suggested without first asking me why it is I smoke pot to begin and not sound judgemental is just impossible. To be honest with you, I havent smoked pot in over a month, and before that I went 14 months without it, when I dont smoke all the **** hits the fan and it's overwhelming. I smoke for a stress reliever, everyone has there choices for me its the herb. Way less harmful than the prescribed opiates that almost killed my sister!