Everything Good Seems To Happen To Other People....And I look at my 43 year old aunt who is single, no friends and still living at home and I have a sharp reminder of how I could end up. I don't think she is happy. I think she has simply given up on life and if I ever get like that or end up like her, I would rather not live.
I am 25 and feel under so much pressure to marry, find the perfect partner, have my own home, have a thriving social life and lots of friends and to be in a job which earns me loads of money. Most people I know have all those things, people my age and I wonder where I am going so wrong as I have NONE of those things. I feel so embarrassed about my life and worry all the time that people will get to know me and then ask me about my personal life and think me a freak when they know the truth.
I dread birthdays as each year that passes means I am a year older and running out of more time to be normal and do the things that other people my age are doing.
I am a good person and friendly towards others so I don't know where I am going so wrong. I am clearly doing something wrong though and it makes me feel SO angry at myself.
The thing is, you can try and make things happen by taking up opportunities and chatting to people to make friends but nothing is guaranteed in life. Whatever I do, whatever new thing that I try, somehow I can't help but think that I will end up alone and that kills me.
deleted 26-30 2 Responses 2 Jun 16, 2011