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My Life Is At A Standstill

       My life is stationary, nothing get accomplished, nothing progressing. This is the way I feel sometimes in my life at least lately. Most of my life centered upon education and making myself better. I accomplished a lot in my life in this area. Since I was young I focused a lot of attention on the sciences and mathmatics. I didn't even feel I needed to study as it came natural to me. Because I am a very logical person, to understand the principles and to apply them was very easy. In planning for college, I choosed to continue on with this path.

        I never had a lot of friends. Even the people who spoke to me, were really using me, to help them for the test. A lot of my friends in high school used to call me einstein because my answers were very explanatory and had depth in understanding the subject. But beside that no one gave the emotional support I need. Through college I did better with making friends, but not much better. I admit I did talk to girls, even asked them out, but nothing happened. My life at this point didn't feel stalled. I felt I was becoming the person I was meant to be.

        After getting my job I am currently I never felt better. I am proud of how far I have gone and to be. I want to add excitement in my life. I don't consider myself to be a true loner but I am close to. Being a little shy doesn't help. I wish people would be a little more understanding and be more caring for others. I wish I had an excited life to add more exciting things to talk about, to keep adding more friends. All that I want to accomplish and ever need in this life is love and affection. I see people other people surrounding me, making love, but I feel a little left out or put to the side.

      I am happy about myself. I can never change who I am, or never want to. I wish I could say I could meet somebody at work. My job has a lot of people working and is sociable. I do talk to people at work. But I feel that my opportunities of meeting someone is somewhat limited because they don't have the time to. Lately I feel the clock is ticking and the motion of my life is at a standstill.

 

          

free112 free112 26-30, M 18 Responses Jan 9, 2010

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You just explained my life and I'm shocked! I feel exactly same way.

I would rather not be pre-emptive. :-)

I have to read that book. Is it a little humorous ba<x>sed on the title. So far my life has never felt worse than what it is now.

Free112, i could say that this has been the case with me for the past few years - in fact nothing I do seems to take off. You are not alone my friend. I know exactly how it feels. Could you read this book "The monk who sold his Ferrari" by Robin Sharma.

I feel that everyone that I know just passes by somehow. I can not explain exactly why things appear to be like that. Having someone that you love everyday, and only to lose it must feel horrible.The only thing we live for is the happy memories that keeps us going.

problem is most friends come and go all the ones i had growing up or me and my wife had are all now dead<br />
i know lots of toher people but i also do not have that speical one in my life<br />
school was pretty much the same<br />
but yet differents we were married very early and we loved each other very much so we always had each otherr<br />
school came easy and between the 2 of us we had all subject covered<br />
but we were also the real thing soul mates we even had they mind talk so we could get answer from each other during a test we we almost always had A' on test the grade letter A on a report card for us was an extra 50.per month bonus so strieng A gave us and extra 800.00 in our bank account<br />
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our mother oved us very much as did her grandparents and over the years we had many adventures with each other<br />
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we did have a bed time as we had to be to work at 2:30 in the morning each day

Yes, I agree with you. I usually make up jokes all day and for the most part I have a great time. But if a lab tech is to be destined to be single forever, then I almost don't even want to be part of it. All of the rumors of lab techs don't seem to be true.

I sometimes feel that way and thought of finding other work than that. They say that "being a lab tec is destined to be single forever" LOL, and they also said that our work is anti social and we belong to "bachelor's society" but actually, we get to talk to different person every time and fellow workers are as crazy and funniest as ever.

I have this feeling sometimes that just doesn't seem to want to go away. Thank you for your words.

You have accomplished a lot, don't compare yourself to others I know it's almost inevitable but it's not healthy, you're great, if others can't see it, they are missing all you have to give.

Thank you very thantophobic for commenting. It is a good feeling to do something you really enjoy and give yourself a sense of selfworth. When I see more negative things happening to me than positive things, I feel like I am drowning and not able to get out of the whole mess, I would be very disappointed to for doing a double major, not landing a job right away and my personal life falling apart myself. I hope everything in your life falls into place.

Awww I know exactly how you feel. My life is a standstill as well. I put myself through college and tried my best to achieve my academic goals, ended up double majoring. Graduated, and has yet to land a job! One year has gone by and nothing. This past year I lost a lot of friends, including a guy I was in a long term relationship. More negative things have happened to me than positive, but I try to keep on pushing forward. It did help to get away for a while, when I had the money saved up. I went and got certified as a SCUBA diver, it was small but it gave me a sense of self worth. Im still trying to make new friends, and keep the good ones I already have.

Thank you so much Kr57. You speak of a universal truth in your words of wisdom.

You remind me of a quote I heard recently....When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. Be open and you shall receive :) Good Luck to you!

R8R4- I need to put a better balance between my education and my personal life. All the weight on the scale was put into education, and I didn't put enough into my social life. This is the biggest regret I have. I need to focus my attention on my social life by going out more and doing activities that I enjoy.

Thank you so much for your encouraging words I really need at this time of my life. In time In time someone will recognize as a whole genuine person. Darktruth I am really sorry for how you feel about your own life and mistakes. You are a thoughtful and loving person darktruth it will work out for you. I believe everybody has a soulmate out there just for you or me.

Thank you so much for your encouraging words I really need at this time of my life. In time In time someone will recognize as a whole genuine person. Darktruth I am really sorry for how you feel about your own life and mistakes. You are a thoughtful and loving person darktruth it will work out for you. I believe everybody has a soulmate out there just for you or me.