My Life Is At A Standstill
My life is stationary, nothing get accomplished, nothing progressing. This is the way I feel sometimes in my life at least lately. Most of my life centered upon education and making myself better. I accomplished a lot in my life in this area. Since I was young I focused a lot of attention on the sciences and mathmatics. I didn't even feel I needed to study as it came natural to me. Because I am a very logical person, to understand the principles and to apply them was very easy. In planning for college, I choosed to continue on with this path.
I never had a lot of friends. Even the people who spoke to me, were really using me, to help them for the test. A lot of my friends in high school used to call me einstein because my answers were very explanatory and had depth in understanding the subject. But beside that no one gave the emotional support I need. Through college I did better with making friends, but not much better. I admit I did talk to girls, even asked them out, but nothing happened. My life at this point didn't feel stalled. I felt I was becoming the person I was meant to be.
After getting my job I am currently I never felt better. I am proud of how far I have gone and to be. I want to add excitement in my life. I don't consider myself to be a true loner but I am close to. Being a little shy doesn't help. I wish people would be a little more understanding and be more caring for others. I wish I had an excited life to add more exciting things to talk about, to keep adding more friends. All that I want to accomplish and ever need in this life is love and affection. I see people other people surrounding me, making love, but I feel a little left out or put to the side.
I am happy about myself. I can never change who I am, or never want to. I wish I could say I could meet somebody at work. My job has a lot of people working and is sociable. I do talk to people at work. But I feel that my opportunities of meeting someone is somewhat limited because they don't have the time to. Lately I feel the clock is ticking and the motion of my life is at a standstill.