Why On Earth Am I Doing This To Myself?

Ive failed a few times now. Ive gotten on AIM through my e-mail, ive checked to see if hes been on EP and ive gotten on his extra Facebook account. Why am I the one checking in on him? Shouldnt it be the other way around? I hate being so obsessed and needing all of this attention, although negative its still attention none the less. I really do need to go to some meeting for people obsessed with their exs. This is just pathetic.

 

8:24pm

Failed again and hes online now so how am I going to hold myself back if he does IM me? Why the **** am I still testing him? So he can just hurt me again?

YoucancallmeJuliet YoucancallmeJuliet
26-30, F
Mar 8, 2010