Finally Out Of College, Now What?

Months ago, I had so many plans back then. I was sure of the paths I should take, of the requirements I needed to fulfill and the companies I'll send my resumes to. But now what?

I don't know what happened. It seems like a huge tornado came out of nowhere after I got my diploma and tossed me somewhere where nothing happens. Maybe in a rut deep down wherever this is where I am right now.

Now, I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I am not sending out my resumes. My friend said that in time, I'll find the drive. But yeah.

I'm pretty much lost. Ha. When was I not anyway.

Half a year after graduation and I've only sent out two resumes. I know I am competent, I know I have the skills and the brain and maybe even the looks, but I'm stuck. I need something to push me out of this rut.

I know I'm lucky and I know I'm currently wasting my life away.

And if my old self would see how I am right now, she'll definitely say "You don't feel like a failure, you ARE a failure."

What happened to all my plans back then...? :-(
stelladepereo stelladepereo
18-21, F
3 Responses Sep 3, 2011

You grew up, that's what happened. The story you told yourself to get through school was powerful and great because it worked, but surely you didn't think that was all there was to it, did you? Life is so much more awesome than that, and so are you!

Oh also, thanks for the comments guys! :-)

going to be hard for a few years<br />
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we had many plans as kirs and a young married couple but those planes ened with her death at 19

Yeah, hopefully I'll be able to survive those years. Sorry to hear bout her death. :-(