For the most part I feel this way due to my actions and inactions. I feel like Ive let myself down in soo many ways. I cant say life has been extremely horrible but I wish there was a reset button somewhere I could push. I try not to let other people down and in doing so I always feel like I came up short handed. I get walked over and hardly realize it til my face is in the mud. It sucks because i dont know how to change it. I dont know how to stop and honestly say no. I hold myself back from doing a lot of things smh. Maybe when I grow some balls I could possibly take control of my life again.