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I Didn't Plan to Fail

Part of me still feels like I failed him... I could have waited just a bit longer, held on just a bit stronger, fought back a bit harder and loved him a bit more... But I didn't...

I came to my cross road and I chose... No it wasn't the easy way, it was the hard way... I chose to fail him... So that I would not fail me... I don't know if it's right or wrong, or maybe it was right in both sense... But now at times when all is quite and I'm alone with my memories, I remember him and I wonder... Are you on the streets still doing your thing? Behind bars? Are you alone? Do you still need me...

Part of me says no I didn't fail, I did what had to be done... But I jump still, I'm sometimes brought to tears when I hear news that someone's dead... I still envision that it might just be you... and I cry... I look at your number still in my phone... I'm inlove you know, I've found someone and I don't think about you like I used to...

But I still feel an obligation though I shouldn't only to you... He thinks you don't exist in my heart, and I must admit, you don't but you do linger in my mind and that's where I shut down, cause it hurts too much... Thinking that maybe I did fail you even after all that's been and said and done... I let you down... But I didn't plan to fail... No one ever does...

LadySoulist LadySoulist 22-25, F 1 Response Dec 13, 2007

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Wow it's been so long... ~smiles~ I don't think he would think anything of it, but it's nice to reflect on this... ~Smiles~ See the love I used to have. It's inspiring... To myself that is, a nice reminder!