Today: I am a college graduate $30k in debt and can't get a job due to being a felony drunk driver. I drank to make friends and fit in, and once people realized I am a criminal, they run the other direction and alienate me. I have a minimum wage job for 10 hrs a week and rely on my using alcoholic boyfriend to provide necesseties for me- food and shelter- all while living with his mother who is dying of cancer and listen to them baby talk eachother. I have gotten 50 rejection letters in the last 2 months, and even fired b4 starting the first day. I don't think I'm worthy of anything better so I don't try anymore. I also put on 40 lbs of depression weight in the past year. I despise the way corporate america controls everything and social media encourages the world to be fake in personality and experience. I try to help others and that gets misunderstood as being a hinderance. I can't do anything right anymore.