Almost Alice

I am 23.  I'm a 5th year senior and have only one more semester left.  

When I'm not at school in my residence hall, I live at home with my parents.  While my parents aren't very strict in the general meaning of the word, I have a constant responsibility to do as they want me to do (work where they want me to work, date who they want me to date). 


After seeing Tim Burton's Alice in Wonderland, I feel like Alice.  The (almost) Alice portrayed at the beginning of the film is being pressured into doing what her family wants her to do. It takes a trip into an unknown land and the experience of overcoming for Alice to become the Alice that Wonderland remembers her as.  

I am almost Alice.  I am the Alice at the beginning of the film.  The constant unspoken expectations that my family have for me are suffocating me.  I only dream that someday I'll be fully Alice-the Alice that Wonderland remembers her for--the Alice that can stand up to her family and express her deep desire to live her life for herself, not them.

Looking at the movie, however, I don't see it ever happening in my life.  It's not that I couldn't see myself doing it, standing up for myself.  It's that I couldn't see my family accepting what I have to say nearly as well as Alice's family did.  

So, for now, and possibly forever more....I will have to accept being Almost Alice.  :(

follower8705 follower8705
1 Response Mar 16, 2010

It is the relationship of Life for the parent(s) to challenge their children's independence as they become adults. Most parents want to keep their child a child forever, in fear that either they will lose their child to change, or danger, or their child will grow away from them. <br />
<br />
There will be a time, however, that you will be completely independent. You decide this time and how it will happen. Perhaps this time has already started?