I feel really sad that my family just doesn't seem to like me despite all my efforts to reach out to them. They are pleasant to me over the phone but they're not interested in seeing me. I have a small family so it's very hurtful when those few people don't want me around. Holidays are really tough.
I find I'm beginning to let myself go, binging on junk food, sleeping longer and not caring if I live or die. I'm not looking for sympathy, just feel so lonely & unloved it's starting to really get to me.