I Feel Like An Outcast In My Own Family

Unwanted Then & Now

By: anthonysgirl

Written on October 26th, 2008

I feel really sad that my family just doesn't seem to like me despite all my efforts to reach out to them. They are pleasant to me over the phone but they're not interested in seeing me. I have a small family so it's very hurtful when those few people don't want me around. Holidays are really tough.

I find I'm beginning to let myself go, binging on junk food, sleeping longer and not caring if I live or die. I'm not looking for sympathy, just feel so lonely & unloved it's starting to really get to me.

By: anthonysgirl

Age: 36-40 , Female

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7 responses

melysad

It's your family who has the problem, not you. Take care of yourself, there is no doubt that you deserve better:)

Dec 9, 2012
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Trevor17

This was my God message today on FB I thought sounded good for you: :) God wants you to know ... that the weight you carry on your shoulders is much too heavy for one human being.

Give some of that weight where it belongs, - to God, and have faith that what happens is for the best, whether you understand it or not.

Keep your eye's on Jesus. Read your bible and go to church and you will get close to your church family and more important; your Heavenly Father, who loves you more than anyone!!! He loves us more than our own family's :) Just keep on going on!!! Continue to lift up your family and when I pray to sum it up I say: I say, I lift up my blood line and husbands blood lines......, so I am not praying for hours.

I am 45, I lost my precious 17 yr. old son :( I live hundreds of miles from my daughter and family.....and I too feel this way at times.....:( but, not for long because I give it to the Lord!!! He has a path for us all and I continue to lift up everything to Him, forgive everyone who hurts me and more important is to forgive yourself of wrongs you have done!! au haww!!! Ask Jesus and His holy spirit, to come into your heart so you will be set free!!!! Remember Satan loves to keep us down.......DON'T LET HIM!! Rebuke him, in the name of Jesus and break those chains that keep you locked up.....your FREEDOM is in Jesus!!! :)

God Bless you and keep you on your lighted path...........

Jul 15, 2012
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TwilightDream

I have been badly used and abused by my family all of my life....I have decided for the last four years and the future, that they are no longer good enough for me. I have had enough, and refused to be used and treated like crap, just to try to get their approval...i will be better off without their toxicity and I am a better person without them ... =)

Dec 15, 2011
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terencbolton25

some people stop talking to family through an act of love and some through hate, you need to choose which one is best for you, if your soft at heart just give your time and money to other and in time you will see how much you really need them.

Dec 15, 2011
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kitty52

My family has never liked me and I am the youngest of 4, I am now 52 years old and I can honestly say never fall into the trapped that I once did. I tried to buy their love. Oh yes I was the one to help out!! they are all under acheivers, I don't have children, so I tried to incorporate myself in my oldest sisters family and boy was that a mistake. I got used severely by her and her kids. They stole money from me when I wasn't shelling it out to them. It was horrible, now I don't have a relationship with any of my family, just my mother and that is limited, because she is and has always been on the side of the family that is wasting away to nothing. I live my life now for the benefit of myself. I have a sense of peace now that the acid relationship with my family is over, and I will never go back. I find things to do to amuse myself, Due to the fact that I was never excepted in my family, I found that my friends are few because its hard for me to trust people. I guess I would have this issue, because when the people who are suppose to love you don't its hard to trust anyone.

Sep 7, 2011
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Jacktheripper21

humans are so cruel to one another. My family doesn't really want to be around me because I self medicate with marijuana. I could sneeze and they would blame the weed for it and tell me to go away. its rediculous. ****, I'll be your family!!

Aug 9, 2009
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anthonysgirl

Thanks for your comment StarAurora:) I do have friends to hang out with but they're mostly married and holidays are family time for them. The last couple of Christmas' I had nowhere to go & found myself wandering the streets, seeing people gather together for a meal etc..I think I'd have felt better if I just rented a movie and stayed in lol!

You're right that they're being 'mean' I never thought about it that way. In any other situation if a 'friend' were to ignore you and your attempts to include them in your life it would be at the very least rude, but when it's family it hurts that much more.

At least when you find toxic people in your life you can get rid of them, family is forever so there's always going to be some 'drama' or rejection to face.

Oct 26, 2008
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