I just keep thinking when am I going to realise that I'm never going to be happy. Just when everything is good it all goes to ****! I keep having suicidal thoughts I want to do it I really do it's so much easier than trying to fight it trying to pretend it will all be alright. The only things that are keeping me here are my 3 lovely girls. My husband has put me in such a horrible position where I feel I may have to choose between him and my family and I can't choose I love my mam and grandma and grandad so much but they will make my life hell once they find out what has happened. I can't live with myself disappointing them. I am so torn right now. I love my husband I love my family I love my kids desperately but the end feels so comforting!
Gemmafird Gemmafird
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 15, 2014

The end feels so very very comforting. Yes. So much!