I've lost everyone I ever cared about.

I blamed my actions on the damage that was done to me. I walk around hurting people before they can hurt me.

The only two men I've ever truly cared for both left me because there was another girl.

I constantly feel inadequate.. like I will never be enough for anyone. I always assume the worst and think people intend to inflict hurt. I subconsciously hurt them so when they hurt me I can act like I didn't care and still walk around like my ego wasn't damaged.

I have literally nobody left. None of my old friends even speak to me anymore. Most of them say it's the drugs. It's gotten so bad so fast. I don't even know how we ended up like this. Unable to be happy, friendly, or even act human without drugs.

I'd give anything to feel a shred of hope, a moment of happiness. I don't know how much longer I can cry, or feel this low. I'd give anything to let it all go.
mitted mitted
22-25, F
1 Response Aug 27, 2014

The happiest moment in life is when u can let go of the pain from past. U can't change past, but u can be present , enjoy the space, nature, air, breathing, any little thing surround u is all u need to survive.
I had the same feeling as u do, still feeling down and guilty and lonely. Talking here is a step closer to feeling better.
Every morning after waking up, say: I m gona let go, today will be better