Sadly Truth

Hello, I am just a typical teenager. but i am different, ive always been happy, but as ive grown older i am starting to realize and find things wrong with me. My eye for instance that is the reason why i want to give up, i had catarcts now one eye is as pretty as can be, whereas the otehr as cloudy and messy its depressing. I feel ugly, i know no one likes me i mean my friends do but obviously a boy doesnt. When i look into the mirror i dont see beauty like so many people are, im not perfect, but i feel sad wehn i look in the mirror and wonder why me?although i know i should be appriciative about life about what god did give me, some people are born disabled and with disease and here i am complaining. but it saddens me, i dont feel like living sometimes, but then i think about it and think why do i even think about those thoughts, and feel ashamed but i often dont appriciate what i have and become depressed and upset about my looks, i just wish i had normal eyes, and was a normal girl. i have a few good friends but people htink i am wierd for hanging out wiht them, i am like a nerdy wierdo girl at my school although everything else about me is beautiful i wouldnt complain just my eye. it saddens me, i feel liek i just want to give up. but then i realize thers more to life, but then agian im upset why did it happen to me. ..i love god, and i really need help:(
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2 Responses Sep 17, 2012

You are beautiful, I can tell just by the way you talk. You come across as a very real person, which is very hard to find nowadays. I promise you that just because you have a small problem with your eyes doesnt make you any less beautiful. I find that people with no obvious flaws are generally pretty crappy people. I have a soft heart like you and get treated badly by people all the time. It isnt fair but at the same time, we need to love ourselves enough to not give a crap what those ugly people think. Easier said than done hey......but we need to keep swimming. Xx

I want to say I am sorry you are going through that =( but I also want to say that you are precious and beautiful and I really admire your love for God. God sees what you are going through and there is nothing wrong with expressing how you feel. Yes we should be grateful but there is nothing wrong with speaking your mind. How you feel matters and God cares a lot. I just want to encourage you on some things you already know which is that when you feel this way vent to God about it. Ask Him to show you christian friends that can pray with you and are understanding. Speaking from the experience of feeling like I have no friends in the end: Deuteronomy 31:8 "It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”

Proverbs 31:30 "...a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised."

Psalm 139:13 "I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well."

I want to say I will pray for you and that I encourage you to look for ways to treat your case. There are things from diet recommendations all the way to surgery that can be done to help you. In the end ask your doctor about how to treat it (Though I'm sure you already have, but in case you haven't i thought I might say that). Regardless your beauty is not measured on outward appearance but I know that me saying that doesn't make it any less hard on you. I will pray and I encourage you to continue praying and asking God to help you. He loves you a lot and I know He will help you:

1 Corinthains 2:9 However, as it is written: "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him"