Lonliness Kills

i had this one boyfriend. and we were very close. very serious.. the forever and ever thing... but he got killed by a drunk driver in a car accident.. weird thing was that we were both in the car with a couple of friends.. he made i to the hospital and survived a week in a coma.. :( finally the doctors sadi that they didnt think that he was going to come out. so his parents pulled the plug.. every since then i have felt this lonliness that will never go away.. when he died he took my happiness, joy, pleasure, laughter, life, and my heart with him... now i feel as if no one out there can or will understand me.. and frankly i dont want them to.. i just want him backk.. its amazing how one person can change everything for you.. because a couple weeks after he died i tried to kill myself.. i couldnt bare any of it anymore.. but it didnt work.. my sister found me passed out dying from the bottle of asprin i had taken followed by vodka... and she brought me to the hospital and they pumped my stomach... i hate her for bringing me back to the place i dont want to be. but i truly can never hate her for just wanting a normal sister who she can gossip with and do nails with,.. that sisters not me.. and once again.. im all alone
seximama123 seximama123
18-21, F
3 Responses Aug 1, 2010

its ok

its ok

:( srry all of this stuff has happend to you.