Lost

I almost joined the group titled "I am lonely" but everyone that posted in there was single and alone. I have a family and friends and am in a relationship and I feel alone. I often wish I were dead, even though logically that is very selfish. I don't feel like anyone understands me or cares to. I feel different. Not in the unique, quirky way; in the unacceptable way. I do not like life. I find it unenjoyable and disappointing. I don't like to watch T.V. or movies, I can't stand going to the bar. I don't like to spend time with my kids. Sometimes I like to read, but even that is becoming unenjoyable. I no longer enjoy shopping. I don't like spending time with friends. I don't like talking to people. I have not had a phone in two years just for this purpose. I do like school, but I am not that smart. I know that I have a lot to be thankful for, but I just don't know how.
MissJaded MissJaded
31-35, F
1 Response Jan 8, 2013

simple thoughts.. being thankful for the little things that you enjoy.. always has helped boost my energy level..