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I Don't Belong On This Planet And I'm Waiting To Go Home

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt homesick no matter where I was. I always knew home wasn't here on Earth. Even as a child I'd watch people, how they interact with each other, examine their features, their behaviors, and I've wondered why I'm so different, why I don't even feel human. I act as human-like as possible, but everything I do is very different from everyone else. When I'm in physical pain, which has to be very strong because I'm very resistant, I laugh. Emotional pain, I numb all emotions.
I always want to be alone. I'm usually in my room, reading, writing, sleeping, gaming. Or at the library, where not even my parents can bother me. I have many friends, I just usually hang out with them at school, and I tend to come up with excuses to not hang out after school, because I'd much rather feel alone. But I think it's because I'm really not alone at all - I feel like there's always someone, one of my kind, with me in my heart. However, I still have the need to find my own kind physically.
I've always had an extreme fascination with the stars. I can spend hours and hours just staring off into them, admiring their beauty. When I do this it comforts me. I don't feel so alone in this world. But I scan the stars, like I'm searching for home, but I've forgotten exactly where it's at. I often get these extreme urges to go home. Lately they've been stronger than ever. I want to go back home, where I belong.
I have always been very mature for my age, but this isn't exactly a good thing. I have trouble with making friends. I am very intelligent, and often find myself correcting my instructors and teachers, but I don't always apply myself because my mind is always off elsewhere, exploring my own interests.
I also don't get close to people easily. I'm only close to two people, and I only love four. I don't really like people too much. But I'm very loving towards nature. Now, I'm not a tree hugger or anything, but any abuse to animals or plants gets me angry and I feel even more ashamed of humans. I'm a fighter, not a lover. I love to fight - but it competition. I'm the only female in my martial arts class, as I have been for two years. I fight against older men in their twenties, thirties, and forties, and I'm in my early teens. Many people find this odd, but I have an extreme attraction to fighting, and I think there may be a purpose for that.
I feel emotions that I know many people have never felt before. I can tell exactly what someone is feeling by just looking at them - they can have a huge smile on their face, but inside I know they're unhappy. It's vice-versa for others. I can also tell nearly exactly what someone is thinking, or what they're going to say before they open their mouths, by looking at them and/or feeling the energy they're giving off.
If a UFO or strange aircraft landed before me, I'd be the one to run right to it. I've seen two strange aircraft near my home before. They both occurred at night. The first time, I followed it into a pasture, but then something told me to run away. I hesitated, but I ran away. The second time I chased it and chased it until it disappeared. I wish I would've continued to chase it though... I want to go home...
I don't feel human. I don't belong on this Earth. I don't know my purpose for being here, and I know I have one. But I want to find my purpose so I can leave as soon as possible. I want to go home. If anyone feels this way, I'm begging you to message me... I want to go home, I need to find my own kind..
Insanityynk Insanityynk 13-15, F 104 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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That is so me...I just wanna leave already. All my life I wanted to develop a way to go, but know its just like...anger I feel so alone.. and for some reason I dont like other humans, its like Im better off without them.. but ive always felt like someone is watching me waiting for me to do something. Wver since Iwas little and im only 18 idk

Once I have truly managed to meditate with the guidance of a video from you tube. (Which off, I have never found again)
By the end of it, I have became one with the universe, I was a star or nothing(Can not truly describe).
It was dark, no fear, no happiness, no time, I was one.
At the end of the meditation I was asked to come back to planet earth. Suddenly I started to cry of the thought of returning on earth. I opened my eyes to find that I actually had tears rolling down on my face.

ive felt like this my entire life and I don't know why. I went to the hospital because my doctor said I had something extremely wrong with my stomach and it stumped all the doctors. They said I should be feeling very hurt, like I was dying. I didn't feel any pain. I had very serious illnesses like the swine flu and other diseases that could have killed me at that age but I only recovered in only a day or two with no pain or feeling diffrent at all. I've never felt like I belong here and I'm very intelligent as well. The stars are something I stare at evey night and the only place I feel safe or home. It's nice to see there's someone else that feels this way.

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Ditto exactly

I have just read insanityynk's essay and I can't believe there's someone out there that's EXACTLY the same as me! I'm almost 60 and have felt this way for my whole life. It's just like the lovely little girl has just interviewed me and wrote my story. I sincerely hope we can find an answer to this aching feeling - her, even moreso than I, as I wouldn't wish this on anyone for as long as I've had to bear it. I hope we can all stay in touch and talk sometimes, as I know NO-one personally that is remotely like me or understands who, what or how I am. I can't believe I've found this website - at last people who I can relate to, after SO many years of this pain and longing..

Wow - that's how I feel too. I don't feel I belong to the human species, and that's because I also feel really ashamed to belong to a species that commits such evil, who likes to dominate and control animals - I am sickened by animal abuse. Humans love violence. I feel my true home is with my animal friends and it's a place of peace, not a place with people who enjoy violence, I can relate to some of the other responses here - I don't feel close to people and i don't feel I belong. I never thought other people felt like that too but decided to google it just to see if anything came up.

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I was going to write the way I feel, but no need to now. You pretty much hit the nail on the head. I recently joined a bowling league, not into karate. I have always felt not human, like I don't belong here. I don't have much memories of my childhood. I've seen my share of ufos, and can spend hours on end staring at the stars. Now I don't feel so alone in this world. I'be been married now for 20 yrs, have two excellent children. But still don't feel like I belong. Thank you for making me feel better.

Hello friend, I just wanted to say that I can completely emphathise with the way you feel.

From a very young age, I've had a huge fascination with stars and planets and the feeling of wanting 'to go home'. I feel very much alien from the people around me, like somehow we are just not operating on the same frequency and I find it very hard to get close to most humans. I think most of my friends somehow get the feeling that I'm different from most of them...

So what I wanted to say is that you don't feel so hopeless my friend! There are many of our kind out there. I'm sure your soul made the conscious decision to come to Earth for a higher purpose and it is up to you to discover it before you can truly go back home :)

Until then, don't feel discouraged! Always remember that you come from a higher place and thay you are certain to return home one day :)

Love and light always,
Charis

I have felt the exact same way my intire life.

Wow. I never realise that others could feel like me. Like you. I feel better now

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I have felt the same way since I was a child. I was always the quiet one, observing people around me and how they react to things being told them, their facial expressions and their body language. Most of all, I'm always able to feel their energy and I am very sensitive to changes in the area I'm in and the people around me.

I also love to be alone and I love to sleep. Ever since I was a child, sleeping allowed me to escape and I'd find myself some where else. I have had past family members visit me and people I never met before, visit me in my sleep to pass messages to the people they cared for.

I was told that my purpose here on earth is to be a warrior of some sort. I am still unclear what I have to do, but I know it involves helping people.

I have felt that I am a visitor here for quite some time... in fact, I have come to terms with accepting this as the truth.

I also have a strong love for all animals and can't stand hearing of any animal abuse. I also have a hard time understanding why people hurt one another and I become overwhelmed when watching the News and hearing of all the pain that people inflict on each other.

So Insanityynk, You are NOT alone . There are many of us alike.

I am 16 and i feel the same, exactly 90 percent we are same.

i feel the same way. I hate humanity. The id system is slavery.We are treated like cattle. I say the hell with humanity.

I am in my early 50s and have felt like this most my life. I am now developing illnesses that doctors are stumped on. This is accompanied by depression and a feeling of what is this all about. My depression is based on the feeling that I don't belong and need to move on; I observe others and find them shallow and asleep; I ong to meet others my age like me.

I didn't realise just how many of us are out there. This day has become my revelation day, by reading such similar (if not the same) stories. Like you, cj, I have illnesses that leave the medics frowning. I had a VERY high tumour marker level around seven years ago and was told that they were watching to see when it became necessary for me to have treatment. Over the next six months, these marker levels gradually reduced back to normal and the doctors told me that that was impossible - no-one has ever been know to 'recover' from such a high level without intensive treatment. What do they think I did? I am 60 in six months time and yet I still have the 'same' hair as when I was a child - sleek, glossy and auburn. Not a single sign of a grey hair, thinning or any other sign of it ageing. I have several small bones in my body that are not present in others. A different shape torso, facial bones and extremely low blood pressure and temperature levels that are 'normal' for me. I once had such a low blood pressure when I was ill a few years ago, that I was hospitalised and my relatives told that my organs should be shutting down at those levels and yet, I only felt slightly 'under the weather' and recovered in a couple of days. I'm sorry, I've gone on a bit, haven't I? I have so many similar stories to tell, but won't bore you all now. I'm just so excited to find I'm not the only one. Thank you for helping to make my day! PS I'm English, so my spelling will probably look a little odd to what you're used to..

I'm a 38 yr old male with pretty much many of the same feelings you have.Ever since I can remember I always felt I was a visitor on this planet and I'm actually from out there in the dark stary sky.
I come from great parents , have plenty of friends.Ive always has ease making friends and work colleagues,but prefer being alone outside of work.Its hard to explain and frankly Ive stopped searching for answers to that question.

I also have a huge affinity for machines of any kind.I can fix or modify them with extreme ease,and understand there inner workings with limited research.I also look in awe at pictures/drawings/movies of large space ships.Almost as if I've been on many and miss the feeling?!? I know I can't explain it?

Long story short I feel sad for humanity and they way it's going in society? Almost disgusted on how we treat people animals and nature! If this is a test we are failing, I hope I get to go home soon

Look up the writings and theories of Dolores Cannon, everyone. You all seem to fit her description of the Indigo children, the second wave of volunteers, pure souls, who came to Earth to help humanity ascend into the 5th dimension.

I've been having a tough year, and I'm really happy to read your post as I feel the same on so many levels. All my life I've struggled with trying to fit in with humans, yes, I always thought of myself as disconnected from the human species and couldn't understand why, I thought I was crazy. I always wondered when I would get to leave here and return home.

I've also struggled with thoughts of killing myself, or begging for release. They are always random, they are never in reaction to something bad happening, and I've also never been depressed. I tried saving my little cousin in a pool once, he had swum to the deep end and kept thrashing about. I swam over and he started climbing on me. It was a while before people took notice, and as I lay floating there in the bottom of the pool, body numb, I actually felt relief because I would be released from this body and this life. I was a young kid too, maybe ten. That moment in my life is the most peaceful I've ever felt. But someone saved me. This past year I've had very intense dreams that are all connected to each other. The first, I was viewing the entire universe. A faceless voice showed me earth, then zoomed to another planet, where he said "this is where you're from." I woke up and dismissed it, just thought it was cool. Then I had a second dream where I was on a mission on this planet, and I had limited time to save something or someone. I eventually made it to an alien looking creature birthing babies, in a warped tree. I had one last dream, a couple weeks ago, where I had found a mirror, and realized it was a portal into another dimension. I had a mission on the other dimension. Right before I put my arm through, I'm pretty sure I started lucid dreaming and knew that if I went through, my body would be an empty shell and I would remain in a coma here on Earth, and that there might be no coming back. I started going through, and woke myself up before I went through entirely. I'm also a painting major in college, who can't seem to stop painting shiny floors or walls, anything that looks like a portal. I feel like I've been searching for a way to get back to wherever I'm from. I have been at unease and shaken ever since, which lead me to research Dolores Cannon. Hope this helps, and nice to meet you. Cai

Wow!! This is amazing that you have taken these feelings and asked about them instead of keep them inside. I can say I really agree with you. I am I tuned to the world around me but I don't really feel the say way that most humans do. I have found myself questioning my existence since the age of 4 and I'm stuck Becuase I don't know what to do. I am glad I came across this forum. I was showered with this immense amount or sorrow and sadness Becuase of all the bad things that happen to animals and the environment around me. Also I just feel like I don't belone and that this life or the life I'm living is a fasod. As I am now 18 and having these feeling more than ever I honestly don't know what to do and would like some support

Jasmine

I am completely dumbfounded! I am 40 yrs old and everything you have stated here is exactly how I have felt my entire life! WOW!!!! I have told people over and over throughout my life that I am ashamed to be a human, I have no idea what I am doing here surrounded by all these people that I cannot relate to in ANY way, I think differently, feel differently, I am not motivated by the same things....I feel a closeness to nature that I have NEVER felt for another human being. I love, no, I need to be alone, it is when I truely happy. I can feel vibes coming off of people around me, which are usually in direct opposition to what they are saying and it is very frustrating to feel everything so deeply. I have always believed that I do belong here, this is my home, but everyone else are from somewhere else, they seem like fake imposters to me....I have been looking for my "kind" since I can remember, even my earliest memories as a baby, I knew I was different and things here just seemed wrong to me. I feel the most lonely when I am with others and I feel calm and comforted when I am alone. I am not sure what to think about reading this and finding out there are others like me, it's what I've wanted my whole life, and now I am just dumbfounded and don't know where to go from here. I guess I had just accepted that I was different, and was not gonna find someone like me, and now wham!

Omg , i cant actually believe this , I was searching on the internet ' how to know if I'm from another planet ' and I came across this , you're exactly like me , it's like I was the one writing this , I have a really huge fascination for forests and stars , every time I feel stressed I just lay down and stare for hours thinking about getting out of here , I'm a nature person , im always the one protecting the animals and insects everyone wants to kill , I find humans so weird , I can't relate to them , only a few that are kinda like me , but still , I'm always the one giving them advice about what they should and shouldn't do , it's almost like I can predict the future , because it always turns out that what I think that would happen , actually happens. I don't need to study to have good grades , it almost comes out naturally . I spend most of my time analyzing people , I can tell exactly how they feel just by looking at them , and , I can tell how they feel towards me just by looking at them as well , I always felt like I was an outsider . I don't know . I can tell how someone's personality is without really knowing that person . Maybe I'm just weird . And I'm only also a teenage girl

I know how you feel. And although I may not be exactly like you on some cases, we both urge to go back to our real homes. Sometimes, especially on some rainy days, I just have this overwhelming feeling of wanting to go back home. It once got to the point where I broke down crying in the middle of class at school one day (I'm a rather emotional person). I feel so helpless though, knowing that the chances of getting back are very slim.

OMG I cant believe I have actually come across this. I recently posted my own experience similar to this. I have suffered 35 years alone with this feeling and recently began to think, what if there are people like me outthere and just seen this. Wow!!!!

I know how you feel. And I have a best friend that is the same way. We are bound to this world for reasons we haven't found yet.only the gods know why.

we can all wright tons of messages about how we actually feel. But when i was reading your post i was feeling some kind of connection. If i could do a wish, i'd wish we could meet. I wanna know if we are the same as i think we are. Just think about how it would be to meet the people who feel exactly the same as you do. the connection there between everyone would be so strong. I cant even imagine.

I have the same feeling! Wow everyday I;m wondering if someone out there in space will ever find me or take me home ? I have no idea what I'm supposed to do on this planet or how I ended up here. I always have some futuristic vision of Human life and yes it's human but in the future.

I too have no friends, well just few ones but they don't talk to me much, mostly of my friends are old people around their 60's already.

I thought I was the only one with this same feeling but I googled it and found lots more, it's great to see I'm not alone on this boring planet.
Maybe we all are some lost soul in space ? I don't know... I just know that I can't fit on this planet or simply don't belong here. Not Compatible with humans living here.

I've been wondering if God is real or not because on my previous life I remember there was nothing like "God" so I don't believe much on that stuff. And I've been trying Astral Project (out of body experience) to see if I could go to space and communicate with someone from my team or same specie as me but as far I know I have no idea where they're or how to go there :'(

I always felt like an abandoned soul from another planet on this Earth.

This is so bizarre .. I never thought that there was anyone out there like me . I'm also drawn to fighting , and I excel in school with a 4.5 gpa .. Yeah I have friends & stuff , but I don't have anyone to relate to is . No matter where I go I always have this feeling of extreme longing to go home . Problem is I don't know where that is , or how to get there .. 😔

I am so pleased to find others out there who feel like this. For a long time I have this recurring thought "I want to go home". I feel it wherever I am, even when I'm already in my own house. I can never work out what I mean by "home", I just know that I'm never there and I so badly want to be. I feel lost. I don't have many friends, I've always struggled with relationships. I generally just don't like people, I feel different to everyone. I always have this feeling like something is just "wrong" here but I can't put my finger on it. I always feel like I'm crazy for feeling this way, so I don't speak about it to people. I'm just pleased to see I'm not the only one.

It is because you are a spiritual being that needs to be one with yourself again. You will soon be surrounded by others like you. Its is the way the universe works . But staying home and daydreaming isnt going to help brethren .

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You are not an alien from outer space. There are several possibilities leading to such thoughts/feelings:
1. You are very observant of this existence.
2. The animal traits of human species have not adapted well in the civilized environment they created, therefore, there is a lot of the illogical behaviors manifested by them.
3. You are a loner type.
4. The phenomenon of reincarnation, difficult to prove albeit there are some evidence, may play a role.
5. The phenomenon of parapsychology or paranormal, again difficult prove albeit some evidence, may also play some role. You may look into these fields, but you need to find the right source. Dr. Claude Swanson's book "Synchronized Universe" could be a start.

With the greatest of respect, you are on the wrong page - in more than one sense of the word. You don't 'get it'. We're not saying anything like you're suggesting. We're talking of how we FEEL, not so much what we believe. That's the whole point.. WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WE ARE! That's why this page was started, to find others that feel that way too. And I'm afraid you're not one of them. If you were, you wouldn't have written the above. And by the way - who gave YOU the solid proof that you're right? I'd love to meet the guy and ask THEM a few questions! It's a feeling that you just don't understand or share..

I feel the SAME way..