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I Don't Belong On This Planet And I'm Waiting To Go Home

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt homesick no matter where I was. I always knew home wasn't here on Earth. Even as a child I'd watch people, how they interact with each other, examine their features, their behaviors, and I've wondered why I'm so different, why I don't even feel human. I act as human-like as possible, but everything I do is very different from everyone else. When I'm in physical pain, which has to be very strong because I'm very resistant, I laugh. Emotional pain, I numb all emotions.
I always want to be alone. I'm usually in my room, reading, writing, sleeping, gaming. Or at the library, where not even my parents can bother me. I have many friends, I just usually hang out with them at school, and I tend to come up with excuses to not hang out after school, because I'd much rather feel alone. But I think it's because I'm really not alone at all - I feel like there's always someone, one of my kind, with me in my heart. However, I still have the need to find my own kind physically.
I've always had an extreme fascination with the stars. I can spend hours and hours just staring off into them, admiring their beauty. When I do this it comforts me. I don't feel so alone in this world. But I scan the stars, like I'm searching for home, but I've forgotten exactly where it's at. I often get these extreme urges to go home. Lately they've been stronger than ever. I want to go back home, where I belong.
I have always been very mature for my age, but this isn't exactly a good thing. I have trouble with making friends. I am very intelligent, and often find myself correcting my instructors and teachers, but I don't always apply myself because my mind is always off elsewhere, exploring my own interests.
I also don't get close to people easily. I'm only close to two people, and I only love four. I don't really like people too much. But I'm very loving towards nature. Now, I'm not a tree hugger or anything, but any abuse to animals or plants gets me angry and I feel even more ashamed of humans. I'm a fighter, not a lover. I love to fight - but it competition. I'm the only female in my martial arts class, as I have been for two years. I fight against older men in their twenties, thirties, and forties, and I'm in my early teens. Many people find this odd, but I have an extreme attraction to fighting, and I think there may be a purpose for that.
I feel emotions that I know many people have never felt before. I can tell exactly what someone is feeling by just looking at them - they can have a huge smile on their face, but inside I know they're unhappy. It's vice-versa for others. I can also tell nearly exactly what someone is thinking, or what they're going to say before they open their mouths, by looking at them and/or feeling the energy they're giving off.
If a UFO or strange aircraft landed before me, I'd be the one to run right to it. I've seen two strange aircraft near my home before. They both occurred at night. The first time, I followed it into a pasture, but then something told me to run away. I hesitated, but I ran away. The second time I chased it and chased it until it disappeared. I wish I would've continued to chase it though... I want to go home...
I don't feel human. I don't belong on this Earth. I don't know my purpose for being here, and I know I have one. But I want to find my purpose so I can leave as soon as possible. I want to go home. If anyone feels this way, I'm begging you to message me... I want to go home, I need to find my own kind..
Insanityynk Insanityynk 13-15, F 81 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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I have the same feeling! Wow everyday I;m wondering if someone out there in space will ever find me or take me home ? I have no idea what I'm supposed to do on this planet or how I ended up here. I always have some futuristic vision of Human life and yes it's human but in the future.

I too have no friends, well just few ones but they don't talk to me much, mostly of my friends are old people around their 60's already.

I thought I was the only one with this same feeling but I googled it and found lots more, it's great to see I'm not alone on this boring planet.
Maybe we all are some lost soul in space ? I don't know... I just know that I can't fit on this planet or simply don't belong here. Not Compatible with humans living here.

I've been wondering if God is real or not because on my previous life I remember there was nothing like "God" so I don't believe much on that stuff. And I've been trying Astral Project (out of body experience) to see if I could go to space and communicate with someone from my team or same specie as me but as far I know I have no idea where they're or how to go there :'(

I always felt like an abandoned soul from another planet on this Earth.

This is so bizarre .. I never thought that there was anyone out there like me . I'm also drawn to fighting , and I excel in school with a 4.5 gpa .. Yeah I have friends & stuff , but I don't have anyone to relate to is . No matter where I go I always have this feeling of extreme longing to go home . Problem is I don't know where that is , or how to get there .. 😔

I am so pleased to find others out there who feel like this. For a long time I have this recurring thought "I want to go home". I feel it wherever I am, even when I'm already in my own house. I can never work out what I mean by "home", I just know that I'm never there and I so badly want to be. I feel lost. I don't have many friends, I've always struggled with relationships. I generally just don't like people, I feel different to everyone. I always have this feeling like something is just "wrong" here but I can't put my finger on it. I always feel like I'm crazy for feeling this way, so I don't speak about it to people. I'm just pleased to see I'm not the only one.

It is because you are a spiritual being that needs to be one with yourself again. You will soon be surrounded by others like you. Its is the way the universe works . But staying home and daydreaming isnt going to help brethren .

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You are not an alien from outer space. There are several possibilities leading to such thoughts/feelings:
1. You are very observant of this existence.
2. The animal traits of human species have not adapted well in the civilized environment they created, therefore, there is a lot of the illogical behaviors manifested by them.
3. You are a loner type.
4. The phenomenon of reincarnation, difficult to prove albeit there are some evidence, may play a role.
5. The phenomenon of parapsychology or paranormal, again difficult prove albeit some evidence, may also play some role. You may look into these fields, but you need to find the right source. Dr. Claude Swanson's book "Synchronized Universe" could be a start.

I feel the SAME way..

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I often have a overwhelming feeling that I want to go home's feels quite saddening...x

I'm 50 years old, female I feel the same way ever since I can remember, I've had dreams that I'm in a another planet earth like with two moons. I don't hang out with people much, I don't have Many Friends either it's hard to find someone that you can talk to that can understand how your feeling , and no I'm not depress either I love life, but I don't fit in this world, I to feel when am I going to go home and no I would never try to kill myself I just wish I knew what my purpose is. So your not alone. And not all of us are blond n blue eyes, I'm Puerto Rican , black hair and dark color eyes.

This is also Me. It took me very long to understand myself. I even have written a book for that purpose, which it will be published soon. And even though it scares me to publish it, I still feel that I have to do it... I don't know why. Maybe it will help me find alike people... So, try to look within, what is you purpose? What do you want to do? I think that our purpose is to help this world, and the only way is by showing how they should live, not to live by their rules... We need to inspire them, not to let them drag us in their very selfish, materialistic world... Be yourself, you are not alone, you are just more awake than others. Show them who you are!

idk, i have always felt that most people were weird and strange to me, i remember that from when i was at least 4-5 my dreams largely consisted of me speaking to a young girl, of whom i could not see her face, but, while i can't deeply remember the conversations i know that they were important and deep. i don't know how long that lasted, maybe 2-3 years and then she said bye for good one night and we haven't talked since. i always felt that, while others might not consider that anything serious, being my age, she there for a reason, to guide me in some way or another back to a home i've never known on this earth. Most of the time when i try hard to remember those conversations i pull a blank, but it brings me to tears thinking she abandoned me, leaving me alone forever. while others might not feel this way, i do.

You just perfectly described my life. It's like I'm reading something I wrote. Honestly it's hard to want to be here, I've spent my whole life analyzing, thinking, and observing. There are very few people around me that I can identify with and most people just don't get the information that I am trying to share with them. I try to remember that they are all on a journey of remembrance as well but most are just running in circles. Time is running out for humans to evolve to a civilized level. It scares me to think about how the world is being mismanaged in every possible way right now when there is so much potential for humans to evolve beyond all of the suffering. I've tried various methods of relating information to people but there is always a form of cognitive dissonance even by coming down to levels that they understand and guiding them towards logical conclusions instead of trying to force information. Of course some people are ready for this information but they are few and far between, leaving me feeling completely alienated from the rest of society at large. I've found the only way for me to deal with the anxiety and depression this creates is to write music or create art in any of its many forms. Maybe this can help you as well. The only other thing that helps me is knowing that there are other people and organizations that understand. The work that Peter Joseph and zeitgeist are doing is integral to survival for the human race. The most important thing is that we allow socioeconomic systems and the ideas that create them to be emergent and sustainable. All the problems we face can be solved by having a scientific world view and getting to the root causality of all of these problems. It also leads to the realization that everything is connected in infinite ways which would lead to a mass awakening on many levels. We are literally a part of everything I am another you, just imagine what that information, (if understood correctly) really means. That means that self interest suddenly becomes the interest of all. Anyways I'm rambling now so I should stop lol.

i am similar but i dont feel it 24 7. had a tough time in school got bullied alot but now im 25, a songwriter with my girlfriend who is great and im really well respected for my music in my city altho i aint famous..yet!! i think theres a good chance we come from another place as our minds are so highly evolved but humans are now enslaved by money and power and most will never take the time to stop and think about the big picture.or maybe they dont have that say that we are 'deep thinkers' which is great but you cant dwell on it too will only make life harder and unfortunately there is no way off this rock and there wont be one in our lifetime.we are intuitive people and it seems there is an army of us! be proud of it but dont let it take control,just relax and you will feel at home one day when youre me it gets better!i have found music has kept me alive up to now..youre probs an artistic type (naturally different/weird) so give something creative a go and you will find like minded people!

This explains me this is EXACTLY how I feel for the longest time we've felt homesick send us HOME!

you are a new child <3

I have dreams about my star family, they take me up to there ship, they are tall, have blond hair and blue eyes which are slightly larger than ours and there wrists are thinner.
When i wake from my dreams i miss them terribly and want to be with them. But i feel like i have chosen to be here as a human to raise the vibration and peoples awareness, so even though i miss my true home this is my home for now and this is my path.

You need to read up on starseeds. Please do. I want to go home too.

I feel the exact same way and I feel like everything has lost point, I can't even join coversations anymore I only observe and I can tell most people when they talk are setting themselves up for conflict and I want to leave and be with more people that get it. I'm glad I'm not the only one.

We are here. :) I almost cried when I read this, it's like reading my own journal. You are not alone. Don't forget this.

Yea...I think there are many of us who are starting to remember our origin...I for one know for a fact...

Oh my goodness, you are a starseed! I was just doing research on this and I came upon your story, I have your answer. Try learning about Starseed. I believe you have a connection to this.

You're right!!! I was thinking the exact same thing! I'm so glad to have read this. I almost cried reading her story.

Just find you, and you are not the only one. For years since I could remember as a child looked the starts with a feeling they left me here. And deep in me someone told me to wait. I am here to see something. Still waiting , when I was a child I could remember places clearly, strange language wich o still remember few, writings , when I started school I was giving a book talking about cuneiform writing and to my surprise all the letter I wrote , leaving them in places outdoor for "them" to find was really close, when I turn 10 I started to forget a sadness came to me because I knew, my memories were leaving me and someone was always close to me I name her NiN. She even told me her name , was her to protect me and care for me until 10. Years old. I feel so alone , I can interact with the wold, people parents always afraid someone would find my truth

I feel it as well. My mind never stops. Its like I'm constantly calculating the out come of everything around me. Always thinking up contraptions i could build with my busy life style i never get around to doing. I feel like the world i was brought up to live in is a lie and I'm here to do something but I dont know what it is. I'm still waiting to know. One day it will be my day.

You are not alone.

I feel like I am different than everyone around me. ever since I was a child I have been curious, looking around at social interactions between my family members their friends and their families and wondering why I could never find or be a part of that feeling, that feeling of bliss and security. I'm often alone because of this fact. I wander through my thoughts and truly find that I m forever searching 4 a place where I can be myself and not be judged but celebrated and loved for who I am. I'm 25 years old and the one person who truly loved me is gone and even he could not understand me but has protected me and loved me as his kin. I feel so trapped in this society where people are forevre mmultiplying and I just can't shake the feeling that I am here on this earth 2 Trenton whatever it is that has weakened me but I feel like I'm in the wrong place my emotions are so strong for people and its just never returned. It's more like there is an interference between me and the human race. No matter how hard I try to do good, I feel like I am a burden I am A space of energy in this world. I don't know why I am here. I don't know what my next move should be and if that move will finally make me feel whole. I feel like I will always feel alone and unprotected by anyone anymore. Where is this journey supposed to take me? Is this a fate that I have brought on myself?

strengthen not Trenton lol sorry

I know exactly how you are, except for the strange aircrafts and i cant tell what people are going to say, But i had these dreams sometimes, and when i woke up the next day when i went to school, the exact same thing happened as it did in the dream. Some quick facts about how i am: I'm always in my room, nearly no friends, Only 1 or 2 real friends, i feel like i cant trust anyone, I like being alone but sometimes i feel scared, i love nature, i feel like everything in this world is fake (except for nature), i looove learning about the stars and the universe and looking at them. I Cant seem to find anymore facts about me...

I love how there is hate, well.. I can tell you that what I just read was like reading my own thought's and if I were to have written it then it would have been word for word. lately it has been worse, I can feel it in my heart and in my mind. I have had dreams that do not make sense, everyday I am looking at the stars for hours and wondering why I feel safe, like there's someone watching me knowing I'm looking, searching, like they know I know. It doesn't make any sense.. I can assure you I have tried to live this life but this world rejects me! I am not crazy and live a normal life for my age and have fun but this is not it! everyday I am waiting for the stars, infact even during the day I look up and feel it, it's like I know there's someone out there that know's.. The stars have been changing lately and I do not know why, I look for signs in the stars, signs that this really isn't where I am from. for some reason I seem to be stupidly good at everything I do and excel quickly, but get bored of it just as fast. as soon as I have acheived what I wanted from it I move on and find myself wanting and pursuing many different carrers/hobbies. I alway's feel lost, no matter where I am or who I am with, when I lay back and listen to my own thought's I know that I am different to the people around me.. It's hard to explain but if I am crazy I would love to know why other feel the exact same way, not just a little but the exact same ******* thing! it makes no sense.. also I do detect emotion, I find anger hard to deal with and I can only deal with it by reacting the same way, I try to help others when they are down because I feel there pain and just want them to be better yet in retuen they wouldn't bother with me. I hate the fact that I can feel other's emotions and almost know exactly what they are thinking.. reading that post made me feel amazing because I realise it's not just me and I'm not crazy after all.. you are a sister or a brother, but know that I myself feel exactly the same way as you do! you wouldn't believe how alike we are! try and get intouch with me if you can #.. anyone.. we got here, we can get away from here. there has to be a way

Hi I feel the same way I don't know y but I know I am different I have always known this. I am meant for a great purpose I just wont to know what for I need to get up to the stars. That
I am sure of.

They might not have been going to your home. I believe there are many galaxies out there. My home is where Jesus is. Heaven is my home I too have never felt like I belonged here... I know i don't....But until it is my time I am going to try to love as many ppl and help as many I can help until it is time to go. Until then I remain READY to GO HOME,

then get like e. mf'n t. n phone ya zzz home

That's rude! you are too blind to see what is going on in this world, you are the nut, because you are not seeing the real world for what it is, I think you have a better purpose on earth then to post what you just wrote, and your time should be spent researching about the real world, because you are obviously in your own world. WAKE UP!!!

Feel the same for as long as I can remember. It is the same with me on sensing emotions. But one thing I know, is that we are not human or any other kind of being. These are just suits we put on the play the games and we have many many avatars. There is only one spirit and we are that! I know this but yet often feel as you do. Lonely and longing for family, for that connection. If you are here, this is your purpose, to live here an play. The connection is there, we just can't always feel it. There is only One and we can't ever be alone.