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I Don't Belong On This Planet And I'm Waiting To Go Home

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt homesick no matter where I was. I always knew home wasn't here on Earth. Even as a child I'd watch people, how they interact with each other, examine their features, their behaviors, and I've wondered why I'm so different, why I don't even feel human. I act as human-like as possible, but everything I do is very different from everyone else. When I'm in physical pain, which has to be very strong because I'm very resistant, I laugh. Emotional pain, I numb all emotions.
I always want to be alone. I'm usually in my room, reading, writing, sleeping, gaming. Or at the library, where not even my parents can bother me. I have many friends, I just usually hang out with them at school, and I tend to come up with excuses to not hang out after school, because I'd much rather feel alone. But I think it's because I'm really not alone at all - I feel like there's always someone, one of my kind, with me in my heart. However, I still have the need to find my own kind physically.
I've always had an extreme fascination with the stars. I can spend hours and hours just staring off into them, admiring their beauty. When I do this it comforts me. I don't feel so alone in this world. But I scan the stars, like I'm searching for home, but I've forgotten exactly where it's at. I often get these extreme urges to go home. Lately they've been stronger than ever. I want to go back home, where I belong.
I have always been very mature for my age, but this isn't exactly a good thing. I have trouble with making friends. I am very intelligent, and often find myself correcting my instructors and teachers, but I don't always apply myself because my mind is always off elsewhere, exploring my own interests.
I also don't get close to people easily. I'm only close to two people, and I only love four. I don't really like people too much. But I'm very loving towards nature. Now, I'm not a tree hugger or anything, but any abuse to animals or plants gets me angry and I feel even more ashamed of humans. I'm a fighter, not a lover. I love to fight - but it competition. I'm the only female in my martial arts class, as I have been for two years. I fight against older men in their twenties, thirties, and forties, and I'm in my early teens. Many people find this odd, but I have an extreme attraction to fighting, and I think there may be a purpose for that.
I feel emotions that I know many people have never felt before. I can tell exactly what someone is feeling by just looking at them - they can have a huge smile on their face, but inside I know they're unhappy. It's vice-versa for others. I can also tell nearly exactly what someone is thinking, or what they're going to say before they open their mouths, by looking at them and/or feeling the energy they're giving off.
If a UFO or strange aircraft landed before me, I'd be the one to run right to it. I've seen two strange aircraft near my home before. They both occurred at night. The first time, I followed it into a pasture, but then something told me to run away. I hesitated, but I ran away. The second time I chased it and chased it until it disappeared. I wish I would've continued to chase it though... I want to go home...
I don't feel human. I don't belong on this Earth. I don't know my purpose for being here, and I know I have one. But I want to find my purpose so I can leave as soon as possible. I want to go home. If anyone feels this way, I'm begging you to message me... I want to go home, I need to find my own kind..
Insanityynk Insanityynk 13-15, F 90 Responses Dec 22, 2012

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I am in my early 50s and have felt like this most my life. I am now developing illnesses that doctors are stumped on. This is accompanied by depression and a feeling of what is this all about. My depression is based on the feeling that I don't belong and need to move on; I observe others and find them shallow and asleep; I ong to meet others my age like me.

I'm a 38 yr old male with pretty much many of the same feelings you have.Ever since I can remember I always felt I was a visitor on this planet and I'm actually from out there in the dark stary sky.
I come from great parents , have plenty of friends.Ive always has ease making friends and work colleagues,but prefer being alone outside of work.Its hard to explain and frankly Ive stopped searching for answers to that question.

I also have a huge affinity for machines of any kind.I can fix or modify them with extreme ease,and understand there inner workings with limited research.I also look in awe at pictures/drawings/movies of large space ships.Almost as if I've been on many and miss the feeling?!? I know I can't explain it?

Long story short I feel sad for humanity and they way it's going in society? Almost disgusted on how we treat people animals and nature! If this is a test we are failing, I hope I get to go home soon

Look up the writings and theories of Dolores Cannon, everyone. You all seem to fit her description of the Indigo children, the second wave of volunteers, pure souls, who came to Earth to help humanity ascend into the 5th dimension.

I've been having a tough year, and I'm really happy to read your post as I feel the same on so many levels. All my life I've struggled with trying to fit in with humans, yes, I always thought of myself as disconnected from the human species and couldn't understand why, I thought I was crazy. I always wondered when I would get to leave here and return home.

I've also struggled with thoughts of killing myself, or begging for release. They are always random, they are never in reaction to something bad happening, and I've also never been depressed. I tried saving my little cousin in a pool once, he had swum to the deep end and kept thrashing about. I swam over and he started climbing on me. It was a while before people took notice, and as I lay floating there in the bottom of the pool, body numb, I actually felt relief because I would be released from this body and this life. I was a young kid too, maybe ten. That moment in my life is the most peaceful I've ever felt. But someone saved me. This past year I've had very intense dreams that are all connected to each other. The first, I was viewing the entire universe. A faceless voice showed me earth, then zoomed to another planet, where he said "this is where you're from." I woke up and dismissed it, just thought it was cool. Then I had a second dream where I was on a mission on this planet, and I had limited time to save something or someone. I eventually made it to an alien looking creature birthing babies, in a warped tree. I had one last dream, a couple weeks ago, where I had found a mirror, and realized it was a portal into another dimension. I had a mission on the other dimension. Right before I put my arm through, I'm pretty sure I started lucid dreaming and knew that if I went through, my body would be an empty shell and I would remain in a coma here on Earth, and that there might be no coming back. I started going through, and woke myself up before I went through entirely. I'm also a painting major in college, who can't seem to stop painting shiny floors or walls, anything that looks like a portal. I feel like I've been searching for a way to get back to wherever I'm from. I have been at unease and shaken ever since, which lead me to research Dolores Cannon. Hope this helps, and nice to meet you. Cai

Wow!! This is amazing that you have taken these feelings and asked about them instead of keep them inside. I can say I really agree with you. I am I tuned to the world around me but I don't really feel the say way that most humans do. I have found myself questioning my existence since the age of 4 and I'm stuck Becuase I don't know what to do. I am glad I came across this forum. I was showered with this immense amount or sorrow and sadness Becuase of all the bad things that happen to animals and the environment around me. Also I just feel like I don't belone and that this life or the life I'm living is a fasod. As I am now 18 and having these feeling more than ever I honestly don't know what to do and would like some support

Jasmine

I am completely dumbfounded! I am 40 yrs old and everything you have stated here is exactly how I have felt my entire life! WOW!!!! I have told people over and over throughout my life that I am ashamed to be a human, I have no idea what I am doing here surrounded by all these people that I cannot relate to in ANY way, I think differently, feel differently, I am not motivated by the same things....I feel a closeness to nature that I have NEVER felt for another human being. I love, no, I need to be alone, it is when I truely happy. I can feel vibes coming off of people around me, which are usually in direct opposition to what they are saying and it is very frustrating to feel everything so deeply. I have always believed that I do belong here, this is my home, but everyone else are from somewhere else, they seem like fake imposters to me....I have been looking for my "kind" since I can remember, even my earliest memories as a baby, I knew I was different and things here just seemed wrong to me. I feel the most lonely when I am with others and I feel calm and comforted when I am alone. I am not sure what to think about reading this and finding out there are others like me, it's what I've wanted my whole life, and now I am just dumbfounded and don't know where to go from here. I guess I had just accepted that I was different, and was not gonna find someone like me, and now wham!

Omg , i cant actually believe this , I was searching on the internet ' how to know if I'm from another planet ' and I came across this , you're exactly like me , it's like I was the one writing this , I have a really huge fascination for forests and stars , every time I feel stressed I just lay down and stare for hours thinking about getting out of here , I'm a nature person , im always the one protecting the animals and insects everyone wants to kill , I find humans so weird , I can't relate to them , only a few that are kinda like me , but still , I'm always the one giving them advice about what they should and shouldn't do , it's almost like I can predict the future , because it always turns out that what I think that would happen , actually happens. I don't need to study to have good grades , it almost comes out naturally . I spend most of my time analyzing people , I can tell exactly how they feel just by looking at them , and , I can tell how they feel towards me just by looking at them as well , I always felt like I was an outsider . I don't know . I can tell how someone's personality is without really knowing that person . Maybe I'm just weird . And I'm only also a teenage girl

I know how you feel. And although I may not be exactly like you on some cases, we both urge to go back to our real homes. Sometimes, especially on some rainy days, I just have this overwhelming feeling of wanting to go back home. It once got to the point where I broke down crying in the middle of class at school one day (I'm a rather emotional person). I feel so helpless though, knowing that the chances of getting back are very slim.

OMG I cant believe I have actually come across this. I recently posted my own experience similar to this. I have suffered 35 years alone with this feeling and recently began to think, what if there are people like me outthere and just seen this. Wow!!!!

I know how you feel. And I have a best friend that is the same way. We are bound to this world for reasons we haven't found yet.only the gods know why.

we can all wright tons of messages about how we actually feel. But when i was reading your post i was feeling some kind of connection. If i could do a wish, i'd wish we could meet. I wanna know if we are the same as i think we are. Just think about how it would be to meet the people who feel exactly the same as you do. the connection there between everyone would be so strong. I cant even imagine.

I have the same feeling! Wow everyday I;m wondering if someone out there in space will ever find me or take me home ? I have no idea what I'm supposed to do on this planet or how I ended up here. I always have some futuristic vision of Human life and yes it's human but in the future.

I too have no friends, well just few ones but they don't talk to me much, mostly of my friends are old people around their 60's already.

I thought I was the only one with this same feeling but I googled it and found lots more, it's great to see I'm not alone on this boring planet.
Maybe we all are some lost soul in space ? I don't know... I just know that I can't fit on this planet or simply don't belong here. Not Compatible with humans living here.

I've been wondering if God is real or not because on my previous life I remember there was nothing like "God" so I don't believe much on that stuff. And I've been trying Astral Project (out of body experience) to see if I could go to space and communicate with someone from my team or same specie as me but as far I know I have no idea where they're or how to go there :'(

I always felt like an abandoned soul from another planet on this Earth.

This is so bizarre .. I never thought that there was anyone out there like me . I'm also drawn to fighting , and I excel in school with a 4.5 gpa .. Yeah I have friends & stuff , but I don't have anyone to relate to is . No matter where I go I always have this feeling of extreme longing to go home . Problem is I don't know where that is , or how to get there .. 😔

I am so pleased to find others out there who feel like this. For a long time I have this recurring thought "I want to go home". I feel it wherever I am, even when I'm already in my own house. I can never work out what I mean by "home", I just know that I'm never there and I so badly want to be. I feel lost. I don't have many friends, I've always struggled with relationships. I generally just don't like people, I feel different to everyone. I always have this feeling like something is just "wrong" here but I can't put my finger on it. I always feel like I'm crazy for feeling this way, so I don't speak about it to people. I'm just pleased to see I'm not the only one.

It is because you are a spiritual being that needs to be one with yourself again. You will soon be surrounded by others like you. Its is the way the universe works . But staying home and daydreaming isnt going to help brethren .

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You are not an alien from outer space. There are several possibilities leading to such thoughts/feelings:
1. You are very observant of this existence.
2. The animal traits of human species have not adapted well in the civilized environment they created, therefore, there is a lot of the illogical behaviors manifested by them.
3. You are a loner type.
4. The phenomenon of reincarnation, difficult to prove albeit there are some evidence, may play a role.
5. The phenomenon of parapsychology or paranormal, again difficult prove albeit some evidence, may also play some role. You may look into these fields, but you need to find the right source. Dr. Claude Swanson's book "Synchronized Universe" could be a start.

I feel the SAME way..

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I often have a overwhelming feeling that I want to go home too...it's feels quite saddening...x

I'm 50 years old, female I feel the same way ever since I can remember, I've had dreams that I'm in a another planet earth like with two moons. I don't hang out with people much, I don't have Many Friends either it's hard to find someone that you can talk to that can understand how your feeling , and no I'm not depress either I love life, but I don't fit in this world, I to feel when am I going to go home and no I would never try to kill myself I just wish I knew what my purpose is. So your not alone. And not all of us are blond n blue eyes, I'm Puerto Rican , black hair and dark color eyes.

This is also Me. It took me very long to understand myself. I even have written a book for that purpose, which it will be published soon. And even though it scares me to publish it, I still feel that I have to do it... I don't know why. Maybe it will help me find alike people... So, try to look within, what is you purpose? What do you want to do? I think that our purpose is to help this world, and the only way is by showing how they should live, not to live by their rules... We need to inspire them, not to let them drag us in their very selfish, materialistic world... Be yourself, you are not alone, you are just more awake than others. Show them who you are!

idk, i have always felt that most people were weird and strange to me, i remember that from when i was at least 4-5 my dreams largely consisted of me speaking to a young girl, of whom i could not see her face, but, while i can't deeply remember the conversations i know that they were important and deep. i don't know how long that lasted, maybe 2-3 years and then she said bye for good one night and we haven't talked since. i always felt that, while others might not consider that anything serious, being my age, she there for a reason, to guide me in some way or another back to a home i've never known on this earth. Most of the time when i try hard to remember those conversations i pull a blank, but it brings me to tears thinking she abandoned me, leaving me alone forever. while others might not feel this way, i do.

You just perfectly described my life. It's like I'm reading something I wrote. Honestly it's hard to want to be here, I've spent my whole life analyzing, thinking, and observing. There are very few people around me that I can identify with and most people just don't get the information that I am trying to share with them. I try to remember that they are all on a journey of remembrance as well but most are just running in circles. Time is running out for humans to evolve to a civilized level. It scares me to think about how the world is being mismanaged in every possible way right now when there is so much potential for humans to evolve beyond all of the suffering. I've tried various methods of relating information to people but there is always a form of cognitive dissonance even by coming down to levels that they understand and guiding them towards logical conclusions instead of trying to force information. Of course some people are ready for this information but they are few and far between, leaving me feeling completely alienated from the rest of society at large. I've found the only way for me to deal with the anxiety and depression this creates is to write music or create art in any of its many forms. Maybe this can help you as well. The only other thing that helps me is knowing that there are other people and organizations that understand. The work that Peter Joseph and zeitgeist are doing is integral to survival for the human race. The most important thing is that we allow socioeconomic systems and the ideas that create them to be emergent and sustainable. All the problems we face can be solved by having a scientific world view and getting to the root causality of all of these problems. It also leads to the realization that everything is connected in infinite ways which would lead to a mass awakening on many levels. We are literally a part of everything I am another you, just imagine what that information, (if understood correctly) really means. That means that self interest suddenly becomes the interest of all. Anyways I'm rambling now so I should stop lol.

i am similar but i dont feel it 24 7. had a tough time in school got bullied alot but now im 25, a songwriter with my girlfriend who is great and im really well respected for my music in my city altho i aint famous..yet!! i think theres a good chance we come from another place as our minds are so highly evolved but humans are now enslaved by money and power and most will never take the time to stop and think about the big picture.or maybe they dont have that ability.id say that we are 'deep thinkers' which is great but you cant dwell on it too much.it will only make life harder and unfortunately there is no way off this rock and there wont be one in our lifetime.we are intuitive people and it seems there is an army of us! be proud of it but dont let it take control,just relax and you will feel at home one day when youre older.trust me it gets better!i have found music has kept me alive up to now..youre probs an artistic type (naturally different/weird) so give something creative a go and you will find like minded people!

This explains me this is EXACTLY how I feel for the longest time we've felt homesick send us HOME!

you are a new child <3
http://www.starchildren.info/

I have dreams about my star family, they take me up to there ship, they are tall, have blond hair and blue eyes which are slightly larger than ours and there wrists are thinner.
When i wake from my dreams i miss them terribly and want to be with them. But i feel like i have chosen to be here as a human to raise the vibration and peoples awareness, so even though i miss my true home this is my home for now and this is my path.

You need to read up on starseeds. Please do. I want to go home too.

I feel the exact same way and I feel like everything has lost point, I can't even join coversations anymore I only observe and I can tell most people when they talk are setting themselves up for conflict and I want to leave and be with more people that get it. I'm glad I'm not the only one.

We are here. :) I almost cried when I read this, it's like reading my own journal. You are not alone. Don't forget this.

Yea...I think there are many of us who are starting to remember our origin...I for one know for a fact...

Oh my goodness, you are a starseed! I was just doing research on this and I came upon your story, I have your answer. Try learning about Starseed. I believe you have a connection to this.

You're right!!! I was thinking the exact same thing! I'm so glad to have read this. I almost cried reading her story.