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I Don't Belong On This Planet And I'm Waiting To Go Home

For as long as I can remember, I've always felt homesick no matter where I was. I always knew home wasn't here on Earth. Even as a child I'd watch people, how they interact with each other, examine their features, their behaviors, and I've wondered why I'm so different, why I don't even feel human. I act as human-like as possible, but everything I do is very different from everyone else. When I'm in physical pain, which has to be very strong because I'm very resistant, I laugh. Emotional pain, I numb all emotions.
I always want to be alone. I'm usually in my room, reading, writing, sleeping, gaming. Or at the library, where not even my parents can bother me. I have many friends, I just usually hang out with them at school, and I tend to come up with excuses to not hang out after school, because I'd much rather feel alone. But I think it's because I'm really not alone at all - I feel like there's always someone, one of my kind, with me in my heart. However, I still have the need to find my own kind physically.
I've always had an extreme fascination with the stars. I can spend hours and hours just staring off into them, admiring their beauty. When I do this it comforts me. I don't feel so alone in this world. But I scan the stars, like I'm searching for home, but I've forgotten exactly where it's at. I often get these extreme urges to go home. Lately they've been stronger than ever. I want to go back home, where I belong.
I have always been very mature for my age, but this isn't exactly a good thing. I have trouble with making friends. I am very intelligent, and often find myself correcting my instructors and teachers, but I don't always apply myself because my mind is always off elsewhere, exploring my own interests.
I also don't get close to people easily. I'm only close to two people, and I only love four. I don't really like people too much. But I'm very loving towards nature. Now, I'm not a tree hugger or anything, but any abuse to animals or plants gets me angry and I feel even more ashamed of humans. I'm a fighter, not a lover. I love to fight - but it competition. I'm the only female in my martial arts class, as I have been for two years. I fight against older men in their twenties, thirties, and forties, and I'm in my early teens. Many people find this odd, but I have an extreme attraction to fighting, and I think there may be a purpose for that.
I feel emotions that I know many people have never felt before. I can tell exactly what someone is feeling by just looking at them - they can have a huge smile on their face, but inside I know they're unhappy. It's vice-versa for others. I can also tell nearly exactly what someone is thinking, or what they're going to say before they open their mouths, by looking at them and/or feeling the energy they're giving off.
If a UFO or strange aircraft landed before me, I'd be the one to run right to it. I've seen two strange aircraft near my home before. They both occurred at night. The first time, I followed it into a pasture, but then something told me to run away. I hesitated, but I ran away. The second time I chased it and chased it until it disappeared. I wish I would've continued to chase it though... I want to go home...
I don't feel human. I don't belong on this Earth. I don't know my purpose for being here, and I know I have one. But I want to find my purpose so I can leave as soon as possible. I want to go home. If anyone feels this way, I'm begging you to message me... I want to go home, I need to find my own kind..
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I don't feel like I belong here. I really want to go home but I don't know where home is. I feel connected to nature and animals but not to many humans. I feel like a lot of my past isn't real, I don't know how to explain it. No one seems to understand me and I feel what other people are feeling easily. The other night my baby niece was crying and my mother was babysitting her. I could feel her sadness so strongly and it felt like she missed her own mom more than anything. When I held her hand I could feel the energy transferring from her body to mine and I was overcome with such a strong sadness I had to leave the room. I'm always hoping that someone will come to take me home but I feel alone, like I'm stuck here. I'm only fifteen, I don't know what to do. I just want to go home.

I also love the stars, I feel very drawn towards them and love just looking at them. I struggle in school because I zone out and don't focus, but my grades are still good. Everyone calls me smart but I don't find so because I get so stressed out with school work, it seems very pointless to me. I am not good at making friends and often avoid hanging out with the ones I do have because staying at home in my room alone is far more appealing. I definitely feel like I'm here for a reason, and I want to figure it out so I can go home. I've felt so lost and hopeless that I've considered just ending my life because I feel like that's my only way to escape.

I do feel the same way but I haven't experienced any such incidents. I have always felt out of place and that I have been put here by mistake or something. Its like everyone knows how to live here and I dont. I have always wondered why is it so. I always look at people on this earth as a third personas if I don't belong here. In particular situations I have felt like going back but not knowing where. I havent ever felt suicidal but that urge to leave earth is something I have felt. Since childhood stars and the outerspace have always interested me, including aliens. I have always felt that I have come here to help people and I love nature just the way you do! I don't know what this means !

Hey! I'm in a little group of wonderful people, we all feel the same way. It's scary almost, how much we all have in common. It is absolutely wonderful. We haven't come up with any answers to what this all means but we have company through it. If you're interested, or even just want to talk without ever entering the group, or whatever, you're more than welcome to message me, if you want to.

I, too, am not from this planet. But I've accepted that I am here for a reason. When my daughter was born I knew she was different the moment I first saw her. She was my inspiration to try to make sense of being here and discover what this phenomenon is. Research star children, indigo children, and crystal children. I've found a lot of good information which will hopefully enlighten anyone experiencing a sense of not belonging here. My purpose is to help enlighten people and bring change to humanity who are self-destructing. If I come in contact with anyone I can automatically feel the energy. I chose a career path that puts humans right into my hands. I'm a hairstylist and massage therapist - with that I'm able to tap into their energy field and begin to shift it. For some who are more resistant I find it drains my energies which causes me to want to retreat and be alone. I have to say lately, especially this past week, has been a very difficult time for me. I long to go home, but I know my work here is not finished. Meditating with moldavite has helped me greatly feel connected to my home while here on this earth. Lots of love.

Woah you have such a good attitude. It is so refreshing to see :) xxxx

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I agree. I am also more aggressive than others (only female in my karate class), I am always correcting my tutors (can't believe my science teacher didn't know about the Bali Tiger!) and I have a fascination with the stars. I don't make friends easily and I prefer to be alone.
Maybe we're the same species?

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Let me answer some of these questions you where sent here to change the world. All of us where honestly that's why we do not feel as if we belong. It's because we don't there are people out there that loon at us as enemy's because they know we will bring change. And that thing that make you feel as if your not alone that's what's known as a spirit twin. Look into it it's very interesting. But what we are are children of the great mother earth other then these humans that surround us. We are here for the better we are here to make the shift from stupid to enlightened. Tell me will you help me male this change or will you let it die. It's time we unite it's time we fulfill our promise before things get bad and we watch our loved ones die. Please help me

I'm 31 and I've felt exactly what you're feeling to a T . Always outside the box. I tell everyone I'm a watcher. I watch things. I feel things and see them where no one else does ,but I'm a talker at first, but avoid anger...never turns out well.......I however am emotional numb and have ok people skills,but no one to talk to and no friends. 31 yrs is a long time with no real friends... Makes me not only seem odd, but feel odd. Ps. The stars,ocean and sciences of the anatomy keep me not so down. Good luck, it's a hard and lonely road we take.

You described exactly how I feel. Always wanting to be alone, watching people do things like they're from another planet, feeling and sensing that you're here for a much greater reason...Perhaps our kind will all get the chance to go back home but for now we can only wait patiently. Best of luck to you.

They call us highly sensitive people. We tend to be extremely intelligent and Sensitive to the energy of other people and the universe and that makes us different from everyone else, which then makes us feel like we are alone and disconnected from everything. Some of us even absorb the energy of others and that makes us feel tired just by being in the presence of another human being. We need time to regain our strength by being alone. You have to accept that you are human and you are nor better nor worse than everybody else. Just different. Now the thing is, we were born with so many rare gifts and habilities useful to make the world a better place and we shouldn't waste them. For example, we are the best kind of leaders known to mankind. We are great listeners. The downside of this whole thing is, we are susceptible to being depressed, disconnected from the world, day dreamers... Once i figured this out with the help of a friend, i became much more aware of what surrounds me, and i am now able to enjoy life here on earth. I simply try to focus on the moment like paying attention to the sound my keyboard produces while I'm typing or the freshness of the water that i drink... you get the idea :)

Amen to that. Once we accept we ARE here and meant to be... here to experience and live in a human form. life becomes easier and not such a battle. We 'enjoy' and take in all the ups and the downs as a lesson to learn from rather than the why me mentality we get into the why not me xx

Yea I suppose I feel quite like that. I would choose nature and animals over humanity any day. I'm 17 next month and I don't belong in this world either. Everything I do in school and college is pointless I can't see myself settle for a life like this. I'm also interested in astrology Magic star signs that kind of stuff. I also feel very disconnected and depressed I have never ever spoken to anyone how I feel it's never the right time or place but I want to. I'm bored with my life everything is so pointless no matter how hard I try. I go to bed and wake up with the same thoughts everyday. Why am I here? What's the point of this and why do I feel like I don't belong. In school I had friends but they stopped talking to me after we all left. I know most of them still talk to each other but no one is interested in me anymore. Now I'm in college and I feel I don't belong everyone has moved on in their lives and making something of it. I know I don't fit here. I know I prefer being alone and I'm better with animals and nature rather than humans I get so angry when humans are just there. I hate talking to people it makes me feel so awkward and out of place I just feel stupid all the time and trying to work out what I am supposed to do with my life

I know exactly how you feel lol I sound like a patronising liar but I honestly do.

I'm 47 and I still feel that way, and the older I get it seams that I have more info or remember form were I come from. I think that the planet I'm from we don'T have parents, we are grown in artificial uterus. Not sure if we are clone or not. Anyway it's not important. I think we are here for a reason... are we on a mission? maybe. This world is dying. Maybe we are here to send the people on this planet love and show them the right way before they self-destruction. Our mind can influence them, it's call telepathy. I'm happy that I'm not alone on this planet.

lately, I fell like I've been getting responses, as you mentioned how we were brought here, for 37 years I've been told not not to procreate, not to mix Or even love, but am still human, that side of me has two precious little boys, which I love them with all my heart, but only feeling like am keeping them for A short while,.. no men yet not inlove, but I do feel and wonder why..
that's when I get these answers .. moments where am from, then is when I hear my true place is no emotions, no pain , no body, no flesh just to wait, the time on earth is much slower. .but I feel like I've been here a hundred years remembering each cycle as a man or woman, but this time I so feel it will be the last cycle as my star people tell me to wait and only watch. , when I get this messages I take pics of my surrounding s. to the Sky and right after those messages are things on the pics , flash of bright lights crossing the skies but only the camera shows.. orbs, ufos and at night same

I am.. and right now is the one of the moments i feel this way extreme and crying it is like my soul wants to get out

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Hello i feel the same way im 15 m i always stare at the stars i always find myself alone from people even my parents i have always been able to feel peoples energy and heal people when i was about 6mnts my mom told me that there were butterflies above my crib in the winter and i have a couple of friends at school but i never hang out with them after even when invited i have never had a girlfreind every time i get close to some one i randomly feel like i shouldn't be with anyone and dont know why and since i was very little i could feel when someone was sad but looked happy and viseversa i would realy like to talk with my own kind

My kick is lucasreinc

And i always have trouble cosentrating on my school work i always see images of the cosmos in my head and other planets i wanted to tell people i know but i dont want them thinking im crazy i know im not im very smart i just seem to only use it when i want to i just want to meet others like me

Hi everyone. I decided to Google my feelings haha isn't that funny. Well I'm gglad I did because I often times feel like I don't belong here and a piece of me leaves. I'm 26 now but I've always been mature for my age. I can relate to y'all very well except for the stars.I used to sometimes stare at them but now a days there's barely any stars where I live. I know a lot of ppl but somehow I still like to be alone. My friends often times want to hang out but most of the time I blow them off. Idk it just feels as though there is no one around that's like me. I feel like I can't love to an extent that's so amazing almost perfect. But I feel there's no one that can love me back the same and I feel I would be single my whole life. I can also feel ppl energy, what they're thinking or what they're going to say. I'm just ready to go. I love my family nature and life is beautiful and im very appreciative it's just I feel very disconnected

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I feel the same way. Just try to keep positive.

Were both the same species who posses the same abilities. I'm amazing you exist!

I have started this PRIVATE group just for people like us, so that no-one else but us can see it. Please join us there. It's safe and secret. You're NOT alone:https://www.facebook.com/groups/1560089687610780/

hi do you have just the name of the group or perhaps your name on fb the link isn't working for me.

Funny. You're the second person that's told me that. Maybe it's this website that's blocking the link, although it works when I click on it! Strange.. I've sent you a pm with my Facebook name so you can friend me and I'll add you from there.

Hi, it seems that there is a dash (-) in the link after 'facebook.' and that shouldn't be there. Perhaps trying without that would work? ^.^

What dash? I can't see a dash love.. I think you may have something in your eye lol x

O.o there was a dash, I am 10000% percent sure of it... :/ just ignore me, I'll go sit back in the corner lol

What are you like Belle? DOH! lol

The link won't work for me either, Im guessing that the group might have to send us the request in order for us to become apart of the group

Please friend me on Facebook and I will add you to the group. Sorry folks! My Facebook name is Loo Black and my profile pic is the UKIP logo. See you soon!

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Are you an Aquarius? We share the same exact pattern. It's like, nothing personal to the ones around me who care, but I feel I would be better off in a world of people like you and me.

I don't know if star sign really has any baring on this, because I am Gemini but also share these with you and the original poster and the majority of the replies. I think we ARE better off being in a world full of people like us. My e-mail address is belly.jessy@hotmail.co.uk. If you you would like to contact me, then you are MORE than welcome to. I probably won't check this often.

Someone needs to message me. I have seen so many post that poeple have made describing my feelings. Describing my thoughts. Writing as if they are specifically writing for me. I could've posted 99% of these that I have read and they would have still been true. i don't know if I can post my e-mail address here but I am going to try to anyway. Please, someone, contact me (belly.jesst@hotmail.co.uk). I need to talk to someone about things. Thank you.

I've sent you a private message on here, as your email address is bouncing! Could you please rewrite it, as I sent you a long email that I really want you to read. Thank you

Hello crystal guide. I'm so sorry, I was really really tired when I wrote that. It was daft o'clock in the morning. Because of that I wrote my damn email address wrong. It is belly.jessy@hotmail.co.uk. I accidentally replaced the second 'y' with a 't'... I will check my pm's now. Thank you so much. I'll reply to you ASAP. Sorry about the confusion with my emails address.

I often question myself whether there is something wrong with me, because I feel that I do not belong here. Don't get me wrong, I love my family/friends and I think that Earth is a beautiful place even though humans are destroying this planet.

But, overall, throughout my life, I have always felt that my home is somewhere 'out there'. Whenever I venture outside at night, I always look at the stars in the sky, whereas most people probably wouldn't even glance at the stars unless there was something to look at. I also feel homesick when looking at the stars.

I am also an observer. I observe things around me, which include people; and I can sense their feelings, too. But, I am a introverted individual, so I don't need to be around people, though I am not a loner type.

Sometimes I would ponder why am I here. I am sure most people do, too. I remember a day I was sitting in church at a baptism, and the priest said that God has a purpose for all his children. That statement made me felt uneasy, because does God really have a purpose for everyone? Does God really care about everyone? Does God exist?

I have never had any experiences with UFOs. But, once upon a time, I used to meditate. One night I found myself in a different world where everything was so dark, yet so bright because I was surrounded by stars that felt so close, as if I could reach out and touch them. But, I didn't try to touch them. The stars felt as if they were intelligent life-forms watching me. It was beautiful. It also felt as if time did not exist. I felt happy. I felt home. But, I felt very sad when my meditation was broken, because I wanted to stay at that place.

So overall, I am happy to know that I am not the only person in this world who can relate to your experience. :)

I have never really shared my thoughts with anyone. I have nothing to lose. :)

I feel the exact same way!! Also I've had problems with past lives that I'd like help with if anyone could help? It would be greatly appreciated!

That is so me...I just wanna leave already. All my life I wanted to develop a way to go, but know its just like...anger I feel so alone.. and for some reason I dont like other humans, its like Im better off without them.. but ive always felt like someone is watching me waiting for me to do something. Wver since Iwas little and im only 18 idk

Once I have truly managed to meditate with the guidance of a video from you tube. (Which off, I have never found again)
By the end of it, I have became one with the universe, I was a star or nothing(Can not truly describe).
It was dark, no fear, no happiness, no time, I was one.
At the end of the meditation I was asked to come back to planet earth. Suddenly I started to cry of the thought of returning on earth. I opened my eyes to find that I actually had tears rolling down on my face.

ive felt like this my entire life and I don't know why. I went to the hospital because my doctor said I had something extremely wrong with my stomach and it stumped all the doctors. They said I should be feeling very hurt, like I was dying. I didn't feel any pain. I had very serious illnesses like the swine flu and other diseases that could have killed me at that age but I only recovered in only a day or two with no pain or feeling diffrent at all. I've never felt like I belong here and I'm very intelligent as well. The stars are something I stare at evey night and the only place I feel safe or home. It's nice to see there's someone else that feels this way.

I have started this PRIVATE group just for people like us, so that no-one else but us can see it. Please join us there. It's safe and secret. You're NOT alone:https://www.facebook.com/groups/1560089687610780/

Ditto exactly

I have just read insanityynk's essay and I can't believe there's someone out there that's EXACTLY the same as me! I'm almost 60 and have felt this way for my whole life. It's just like the lovely little girl has just interviewed me and wrote my story. I sincerely hope we can find an answer to this aching feeling - her, even moreso than I, as I wouldn't wish this on anyone for as long as I've had to bear it. I hope we can all stay in touch and talk sometimes, as I know NO-one personally that is remotely like me or understands who, what or how I am. I can't believe I've found this website - at last people who I can relate to, after SO many years of this pain and longing..

I won't write about any more of my experiences, as they have nearly all been covered exactly by almost everyone on this topic - I have even replied to some of them, with some of my own tales. The reason I write this post, is to find people like us in the UK, with the intention of creating a meeting place somewhere for us all to get together and talk. I would LOVE to meet everybody on here, but it's virtually impossible, as we all live so far apart. I have been all over the internet, trying to find a group in the UK that can meet up to discuss our feelings and beliefs and share our stories together, but to no avail. I feel it's the only way to stop feeling so alone, ‘homeless’ and out of sync with life - to know that I can sit and talk with people like myself and all of you. No-one that doesn't understand or feel the same way as us will ever be able to communicate with us as we so desperately want and need to. I’m tired of keeping this stuff to myself because no-one I know will take me seriously. I NEED to talk and share my thoughts, feelings and experiences with anyone that is the same – I’m tired of being on my own all the time and feeling like I’m an outcast that will be ostracised by declaring what I truly believe and know. Please can someone point me in the right direction on how to initiate these meetings? I’m getting to the end of my rope now – like a pressure cooker waiting to explode! Thanks for reading this and good luck to you all...

Wow - that's how I feel too. I don't feel I belong to the human species, and that's because I also feel really ashamed to belong to a species that commits such evil, who likes to dominate and control animals - I am sickened by animal abuse. Humans love violence. I feel my true home is with my animal friends and it's a place of peace, not a place with people who enjoy violence, I can relate to some of the other responses here - I don't feel close to people and i don't feel I belong. I never thought other people felt like that too but decided to google it just to see if anything came up.

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I was going to write the way I feel, but no need to now. You pretty much hit the nail on the head. I recently joined a bowling league, not into karate. I have always felt not human, like I don't belong here. I don't have much memories of my childhood. I've seen my share of ufos, and can spend hours on end staring at the stars. Now I don't feel so alone in this world. I'be been married now for 20 yrs, have two excellent children. But still don't feel like I belong. Thank you for making me feel better.

I have started this PRIVATE group just for people like us, so that no-one else but us can see it. Please join us there. It's safe and secret. You're NOT alone:https://www.facebook.com/groups/1560089687610780/

I can't seem to find the group, it says content is currently unavailable. If you look up Kelli Klaben (Joon Pearl). Just add me as a friend.

You haven't got your Facebook set for adding friends Kelli. I've pm you on here so you can add me instead.

Hello friend, I just wanted to say that I can completely emphathise with the way you feel.

From a very young age, I've had a huge fascination with stars and planets and the feeling of wanting 'to go home'. I feel very much alien from the people around me, like somehow we are just not operating on the same frequency and I find it very hard to get close to most humans. I think most of my friends somehow get the feeling that I'm different from most of them...

So what I wanted to say is that you don't feel so hopeless my friend! There are many of our kind out there. I'm sure your soul made the conscious decision to come to Earth for a higher purpose and it is up to you to discover it before you can truly go back home :)

Until then, don't feel discouraged! Always remember that you come from a higher place and thay you are certain to return home one day :)

Love and light always,
Charis

I have started this PRIVATE group just for people like us, so that no-one else but us can see it. Please join us there. It's safe and secret. You're NOT alone:https://www.facebook.com/groups/1560089687610780/