I Just Can't Find My Place Here.
I'm not very good at expressing myself, but I'll try.
The tears are rolling down my face as I write this. Ever since I was young, I 've found myself aloof from my peers. I always played alone, was very timid and quiet. I admit that I was picked on and laughed at, but I always thought that as I got older, as we all got older, there would be a more sophisticated way of dealing with each other. I thought that people would accept and understand each other more readily. I was wrong. I found that people's attitudes were not much different from when they were younger. We seem to live in a society that encourages and rewards greed, narcissism, ruthlessness and heartlessness. I know that this can't possibly apply everywhere, but it seems to be prevalent around me.
I don't know how to fit into this environment. I like caring about people and being both sympathetic and empathetic. I enjoy being intellectual and understanding towards others. The world around me does not seem to be conducive to this. I'm out of step with things and it leaves me lost. I find myself not wanting to deal with the day to day politics of life.
I'd like to leave but I don't know where to go or what to do.