I Have Lost Myself

Get a hobby. Anything that you would like to do. If you can think of one in-particular then try a couple. It sounds like you have low self-esteem and this is seriously ******* up you confidence levels, which would cause the problems that you have stated so far.



Think about yourself for a few days/weeks (no longer then weeks) and if you could put pen to paper and brain-storm who you are! From the storm do 2 lists of good things and bad things (remember some bad things aren't bad just perceived wrongly). Look at this and think what sort of person you are from this and what sort of things that you might like.



In time you will get better but doing nothing will get you nowhere. But then saying that, don't be in any rush; take your time - you have the rest of your life to fully figure out who you are! All you're doing now is just getting yourself started.



Good luck and drop me an email if you want/ or not, whatever you feel like at the time...



Peter

Oh I remember feeling exactly the same way you do when I was your age, many years ago,



As a matter of fact, I remember feeling that wa a few years ago. Scary.



I don't think you are ruining anyone's life. But I do think, maybe, you could be suffering from depression. This is nothing you have done wrong. It is a chemical imbalance that can sometimes hurt us when we least expect it.



Find someone to talk to...even if it is me for starters. I am not a doctor, but a really good listener. You may have to consider seeing a doctor at some point, to get medication to balance your mood.



There are many people who feel like you do, so don't feel alone. Don 't deal with this alone. Let someone in who can just reach a hand out to pull you up.



:)