I Lost Myself And My Happiness
Throughout most of my life I have usually been a generally happy person. Granted, I did go through some patches of depression in early high school, but by junior year I felt as though I had just outgrown it. I loved everything about life! I could appreciate and enjoy even the small things in life. Lately though, it hasn't been like that at all. I recently moved out for college and I feel like I'm struggling more than the people around me. Not only am I battling the typical homesickness, but I have lost all sense of how to make myself happy. Nothing puts a smile on my face anymore besides my own willpower to smile when I am around people. I have met wonderful people here I get good grades and I go to fun parties. Basically, I have everything I thought I wanted out of college. But for some reason I am in this viscious dark place in my life and I don't know what to do. I'm no longer inspired by the future. Why don't I see life like I did before? Why can't I seem to enjoy the small things... or anything for that matter anymore?