I Am No Longer Static.

There's what I am, what I think I am and what I want to be. I have to let go of what I think I am because it takes liberties with what I want to be, interferes with it. I have to know what I am so that I can progress to what I want to be. You get hurt when you are proven not to be what you think you are. It's like a pride thing. I used to think I had greater intelligence, I used to think I was stronger than most physically. I've just had to let that go. I'm actually quite decrepit and I should be more careful because of it. I'm really not that intelligent because I poison myself with alcohol and I have some stupid, pigheaded ideas sometimes. But I still intend to be physically strong and healthy one day. I still intend to know the truth. I know what I want to be. I need to just do it so I can be it, despite what I am.
Explodey Explodey
22-25, M
Jun 18, 2012