I've Lost Myself An Everything Else
I'm only 21 and I've lost everything I honestly don't know who I am I used to be so out going and so talkative but now I hate everyone.. I'm bitter towards strangers and I pushed all of my friends away... And I'm always trying to push my boyfriend away to leave me.. I mean there was a turnin point to where this all began... My bestfriend stabbed me in the back and she was the last friend I had she was like a sister to me.. I won't get into any detail but of course after what she did I lost all trust in people and my relationship now my boyfriend had done things to lose my trust and I became such a low self esteem person and so overly jealous I became such an ugly person inside because of the two important people to me hurt me and now I feel like I can never come back up and it's effecting any relationship with anyone I talk to.. It's like I don't want to socialize any more but I've been closed off to people that I've lost who I am.... I don't know what to do and I only feel I'm getting worse.