I Have Lost Myself

For a while now there has been not 1 day that I have not cried, even as I write this I'm sobbing. I just wish someone would give me a big hug that's all I don't ask for more. I really don't know what to do anymore the more I try to please others the more I fail. I live for my kids & husband I do everything thinking in them. It's not that I regret it but it seems it's never enough. I don't do things like  I was 'suppose' to or they don't like the way I did it. I try to do everything the way I know they want  usually like it  but it is never is correct. I'm just tired & when I actually try to stand up for myself it much worse because I upset them & cause trouble. That's why I can't & don't tell them how I feel, I don't want to upset them. I don't have any friends or anyone whom to vent out to so I just keep it all in.

I really love them so much I really do I just wish I could be better for them. Do you all know what I mean? I am not the person whom I once was I feel so lost.

bienperdida09 bienperdida09
26-30, F
2 Responses Oct 18, 2009

Hey, to beat your self down so hard. You sound like a beautiful person. I'm not married and I don't have kids. I think you should talk to your family as well. Just do it calmly and serious. Tell them how much you love them and how much you wished they appreciated you. They'll find out sooner or later how great you are.

I think you SHOULD talk to your family (well at least your husband) bienperdida09, you shouldn't have to suffer. At least think about it, you can't keep doing this to yourself.<br />
And you can always find yourself again. Do not give up hope my dear :)<br />
If you need a friend to talk to, you can talk to me ok :)