I Have Lost Myself
For a while now there has been not 1 day that I have not cried, even as I write this I'm sobbing. I just wish someone would give me a big hug that's all I don't ask for more. I really don't know what to do anymore the more I try to please others the more I fail. I live for my kids & husband I do everything thinking in them. It's not that I regret it but it seems it's never enough. I don't do things like I was 'suppose' to or they don't like the way I did it. I try to do everything the way I know they want usually like it but it is never is correct. I'm just tired & when I actually try to stand up for myself it much worse because I upset them & cause trouble. That's why I can't & don't tell them how I feel, I don't want to upset them. I don't have any friends or anyone whom to vent out to so I just keep it all in.
I really love them so much I really do I just wish I could be better for them. Do you all know what I mean? I am not the person whom I once was I feel so lost.