In the Begining

At first I thought that I was just upset about all my family losses,But then Id relized Id got a bad case of depresion.

I felt like I had to do every thing and I felt like every one expected me to do things,I am an only doughter, eldest grandauter,only grandauter only nece.It was too much. I felt like I was good for nothing and that every thing i did was wrong,It didnt help when I was diegnosed with cancer again.

But my friends from my coven helped me threw until 2 weeks after I seemde to be improving my best friend died of bloud cancer and yet again I fell in to that black hole traped all alone screaming my lungs out but no one could here me and no one wanted to help.The blackness had consumed me.But out of nowere a bright light shone on me in the darkness. My coven friends never gave up on me and they puled me to the light and for that I will always be there 4 them if they ever need me.

Now i am my normal happy self,But one thing I know 4 sure is that I will never forget that dark place in my mind.

Blessed be love and light. Phoenix  x

firebird firebird
18-21, F
3 Responses May 11, 2007

I remember my depression. It was bad. But as you said, I still remember how bad it can be. Glad you are feeling better and hope you continue to stay out of it. I went back in twice but the second time was my fault. Wish you well.

With the pain and blackness, the light shines all the sweeter.

You'll never forget the dark....because if it hadnt been for that, the light may not have shown up so good. Keep the faith, sweetie, then you'll always find your way. x