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Overwhelming Feeling

Im not sure what major trauma can do to people but call ma mad if you like. I feel like im here for a reason like im meant to do something big,trouble is i dont know what that is. Its just so strong that i cant seem to think about anything else. The last twenty years i have been doing  alot of things i probably shouldnt but im a different person now and feel something is pulling me toward itself. Im letting nature take its course but just want it to happen now as there is just such an overwhelming feeling coming from inside me. It only seems to be prevelant at night when all is quiet and the world is asleep. During the day its like im blocked and society controls my actions as we have to conform in society or we dont fit in. At night i feel free and  sit up most of the time till early morning as i love the feeling. Its kinda telling me something i think but i need more time to really feel what it is. My family is very spiritual and my nana was the mastermind behind all this. I have had many experiences with the afterlife and feel like there trying to tell me something. Whatever it is its big and its something i have to do while im here. But its also giving me the feeling that once this has happened that it will be my time to go. This im not afraid of because i no whatever it is that i have to do will free me of the torment that i have experienced for a very very long time. Maybe im a dreamer or maybe im just going mad or, i could just be hanging on to something cos i have nothing at the moment. Whatever it is  i dont mind cos i feel good about it, trouble is i just wish i knew what it was.A few more weeks of sitting silent at night and it may come to me. Im guessing the silence is a great form of meditation which is why im having these things come to me. Its something ive felt before but this time it is so much stronger and its filling me up inside as ther has been a great emptiness for so long. Maybe its life thats filling up inside. But maybe its something else, a much greater source of energy which it so very much fels like. My curiosity is at its peak
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I feel that I am here for a stronger purpose, but I don't want to sound like I want attention. I feel confused, it hurts me inside. I'm angry with myself for this. You know what " I'll get to the point." I feel I need to help people, I have to protect people, I have to and want to be a superhero.

i feel the same way you do and alot of the same things like for some reason my natural sleep scedual is at night and im much happyer and motivated but dont know what for i feel like theres this presence around me guiding me and i feel it more in my sleep its like i dont dream anymore either. i think that there is a reason why i feel this way but cant put my finger on it.

I too have had a knowing that I am suppose to do something but I have no idea what it is. I've had that feeling for 25 years and it is getting more intense. I recently read Martha Beck's latest book, Finding your way in a wild new world. She describes exactly what each of us are saying. I recommend that you get her book at the library or bookstore. It is out on audio too. I've not read the whole thing, but her books have helped me to at least understand that I'm not the only one out there with these feelings. It makes me feel more 'normal.' She also gives you tools that are very interesting. I do feel very isolated.

Ihave felt this way for as long as I can remember and am now IO;m 40. I have an aunt I have shared this with and she had the same feelings that I would some day do somthing remarkable that I was here for a special reason.<br />
That sort of pressure is not good for ones metal health and I have unfortunatley turned to drugs as I want to stop the feelings they are so intense and make me so sad that I am wasting every day of my life.<br />
I see a counsellor and dr for help and they put it down to depresson or type 2 Bipolar but that is not it. It is inside of me and It is a constant struggle every day.

Ihave felt this way for as long as I can remember and am now IO;m 40. I have an aunt I have shared this with and she had the same feelings that I would some day do somthing remarkable that I was here for a special reason.<br />
That sort of pressure is not good for ones metal health and I have unfortunatley turned to drugs as I want to stop the feelings they are so intense and make me so sad that I am wasting every day of my life.<br />
I see a counsellor and dr for help and they put it down to depresson or type 2 Bipolar but that is not it. It is inside of me and It is a constant struggle every day.

Ihave felt this way for as long as I can remember and am now IO;m 40. I have an aunt I have shared this with and she had the same feelings that I would some day do somthing remarkable that I was here for a special reason.<br />
That sort of pressure is not good for ones metal health and I have unfortunatley turned to drugs as I want to stop the feelings they are so intense and make me so sad that I am wasting every day of my life.<br />
I see a counsellor and dr for help and they put it down to depresson or type 2 Bipolar but that is not it. It is inside of me and It is a constant struggle every day.

Ihave felt this way for as long as I can remember and am now IO;m 40. I have an aunt I have shared this with and she had the same feelings that I would some day do somthing remarkable that I was here for a special reason.<br />
That sort of pressure is not good for ones metal health and I have unfortunatley turned to drugs as I want to stop the feelings they are so intense and make me so sad that I am wasting every day of my life.<br />
I see a counsellor and dr for help and they put it down to depresson or type 2 Bipolar but that is not it. It is inside of me and It is a constant struggle every day.

I feel like this is the reason that I am still here even though I tried so desperately no to be...My family was told that they didn't think I would wake up, I didn't for three days, but on that last evening, I opened my eyes. Since then, I have been convinced that there must be something I am meant to do, I always feel like there is, but like you, I still have no idea of what.....Maybe we won't know until that one defining moment arrives.............

I have felt this way for as long as I can remember,im not relig at all , I feel that I am supposed to know something or do something but dont know what,its like the last part of jigsaw,you know where it is but when you look its not there ,if you know what I mean , ive even shouted to myself ,what is it ? What do I need to know , ah its like roy from close encounters (1978) when he runs outside and shouts what is it . I get this everyday.

I have felt this way for as long as I can remember,im not relig at all , I feel that I am supposed to know something or do something but dont know what,its like the last part of jigsaw,you know where it is but when you look its not there ,if you know what I mean , ive even shouted to myself ,what is it ? What do I need to know , ah its like roy from close encounters (1978) when he runs outside and shouts what is it . I get this everyday.

I have felt this way for as long as I can remember,im not relig at all , I feel that I am supposed to know something or do something but dont know what,its like the last part of jigsaw,you know where it is but when you look its not there ,if you know what I mean , ive even shouted to myself ,what is it ? What do I need to know , ah its like roy from close encounters (1978) when he runs outside and shouts what is it . I get this everyday.

I feel like anyone who take the time to read this must have been feeling somewhat the same as you are. and i know how cliche it is, but i have also had this feeling for about a year now. I'm glad i found this because i can't explain it very well, but it's just a deep feeling to gather information on all sorts of things i'd never be interested in and to learn as much as possible in a short period of time. I am pretty religious, for my age (18) but i still do anything else an 18yr old would do...i'll be honest, i drink and smoke but i have always gone to church on sunday mornings alone because i feel comfortable in church. and my priest actually took me aside to his office and spoke to me about how he sees something in me and all this other stuff that i know you aren't interested in...but what i'm trying to say, is that i think everyone is here for a reason whether it's big or small, there is a plan for everyone. Maybe some people just have bigger things they are meant to accomplish. And maybe those people have a deeper feeling for it. i'm not sure, i've been trying to figure this feeling out just like you have. I'm glad to know i'm not alone. -stephen

I'm sure this will seem absolutely ridiculous, but after reading a few of your stories, I've could cutcopypaste stuff right out of your stories to write mine. lol! I won't, I promise, but I could. I know this feeling though, very well. Especially the part about "But its also giving me the feeling that once this has happened that it will be my time to go." I have the exact same feeling about my purpose.<br />
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*shaka*