Well I don't know where to start. I have a good job, have my own apartment and i´m really close to my family but most of the time i feel alone and sometimes depressed.

I have a couple of really close friends but most of them have kids and some of them don't live in the same town as me. I don't want to bother them with my "problems". I often start to think about what I am going to do when I get off work before I even go to work. Most people are excited to get off work.

Me and my mother argue a lot so I try not to be around her so much.
My biological father lives in another country but i met him for the first time a few months ago. I often think what it would be like if I just moved to another country.. maybe my life would be better and I'd be happier.
I have 3 half siblings and I often wonder if that is the reason me and my mom argue so much.. maybe I remind her of her past.

I have been thinking about moving to another country for about 10 years now but I am still here.. Sometimes I go to visit some family that lives in another village, just to get away from my "problems" and it helps sometimes but as soon as I get back home it all comes back.
I don't know if I will ever make my dream come true and get away from here.
Someone once said to me that i was just bored
Or maybe I am a little bored but what about all the other things that make me sad.

PS: I am not sad and depressed all the time tho.. everyone has "one of those days" once in awhile.. I just think that mine are a bit more often now than they used to be.

It actually helped to write all this down. I have never written things like this before and my mood got much better.

" It's not a bad life just a bad day "
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1 Response Jan 22, 2016

I find identity and the feeling of belonging play a very important part of my happiness. What you are going through makes total sense. The good news is that you can address a lot of these issues with good personal decisions. You are in total control of your fate from what I can see. Have fun with this.