Never Good Enough For Anyone
I did cry. I cried a lot. I've thought about suicide because I'm crazy. I'm never good enough for anyone or anything. I wonder to myself many times, what am I doing liking this guy, ha, I'll never be good enough for him. I felt this way about a lot of things. Until I discovered track and distance running. I was a distance runner and I didn't ever stop running, I wasn't the fastest obviously, I'm not good enough to be the fastest, well, when the track meet rolled around, and i ran the mile. It wasn't that good but I was happy because it was the fastest I'd ever run it. I ran it in 8 minutes and 24 seconds. When I came home after the whole event, and told my sister and mom, my sister started telling me how that wasn't very good and that in her gym class everyone had to do that. Then after that she told me that I needed to take a shower because I smelled like outside and sweat. I hated that. In the end she finally gave me a wimpy 'good job,' wimpy as in with the lowest amount of enthusiasm possible. Yet again, I wasn't good enough. This kind of thing happens a lot. Every time actually. I'm starting to think that I'm not good enough for life.