Lose Control

I can't suppress my anger anymore. My family, the way they are to me, it just hurts. A while ago i told hem some things they didn't like, and now i feel like they just keep me because they have to. It's been, what, six months since then, all the excess anger I've been holding up till now is coming out. My mom has lied her way out of situations before and i'm her accomplice, I keep her lies and tell them to whoever. Lately my anger towards her has been showing itself. I don't know what to do, i'm afraid i'll snap and do or say something i shouldn't. My friends say 'wait it out, it will get better' or 'i don't know'. Well I've been "waiting it out" for years now, I don't think i have that much more patience left, but i can't leave.
I want so badly to run and never look back but every time i want to try, something stops me in my tracks. I can't explain it. things have gotten slightly better but the lies still linger. I need help with control.
Tell me what to do for control, I need answers or something.
MariahWolf MariahWolf
13-15, F
Dec 1, 2012