I Feel Trapped And Need Help.

 Hello, this is my first time posting my story so i hope i do okay.

First off, I am 30 year old mother of four children. I am also a soon to be college graduate in Cincinnati. I feel liked I'm trapped Inside myself because I have held so much pain in my heart for so many years. I use to be in an abusive relationship many years ago. I was able to finally get out of the relationship and never talked about it to anyone. (Not that it was a secret). My family knew but I never talked to a professional about it. Every since then I have had one bad relationship after any other. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel trapped because I don't know how to deal with my depression. I feel trapped because i am always in the house. I want to live my life but the stress makes it very hard. I am having seizures because of stress and depression. I want out of this body and frame of mind. I want the positive things in my life. I want to be single but I don't know how to let go of things that are not good for me. Maybe that's the problem. I need help. I want to know how to let go and just let God lead my life. I want to be more than content. I want to be happy. I want to meet my soul mate, love hard and good, get married and be happy. I also want to find me a career where I am making a difference in someone else life. I know it seems like I am going on and on but I just wanted to write what's on my heart. What I really need is a friend and that's all i have to say for now.

temesha30 temesha30
26-30, F
Mar 9, 2010