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My Life Feels Like It Has Passed Me By


 

    My life feels like it has passed me by.  Years ago I was seeing a male psychiatrist and this is what he told me. your life has been passing you by.  I believed him, because when I look back on my life I have not accomplished anything.  When I was young teenager sitting in one of my classes just off daydreaming of what my future would be. All I could dream about was getting married to the man of my dreams, have a comfortable home and have a child, but the only part of my dream that came true was I did get married to my boyfriend of 5 years of having a serious relationship.  But it ended there I never had a child. I had a job, but lost my job.  Moved around too much and was always having to start over new again. Ten years later I  found another job only to be let go 6 months later. During those years no matter how many self-help groups and years of therapy I had wasn't enough to help me with what I was going to do with my life. I remember hearing what do you want to do when you grow-up once in my life, but was already an adult.  These days, I just sit at home wondering what I can do so that the rest of my life doesn't pass me by.  

      For many years, I have been doing some soul searching and wanting to find meaning and purpose to my lonely and isolating life.  I am now in my mid-fifties I know life doesn't end there.  I am somewhat shy and a passive person and not being able to assert myself to get what I want.  I can also be sensitive to what other people say to me, but then sometimes it helps me to see how I can improve myself.        

Sara600 Sara600 56-60, F 6 Responses Mar 19, 2010

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I really appreciate your great advice, because when I am finally to find courage and strength inside of me to take the step to change my life I will. For the last 2 years I have been seeing a great therapist, but unfornately she will be giving up her private practice which means I will be searching for a new therapist. I already have one in mind.

Hi Sara.I am still seeing a psychiatrist for the last 5 yrs after my diagnosis of adrenal insufficiency.This health challenge of mine has other attachments like diabetes,HBP,High cholesteral,odesity(taking steriod)and my osteoarthritis of 31 yrs.4 times of knee replacement was not successful over 5 yrs.My life since a child was tormenting and tramatic.i shared in my stories on EP and have since been inspired and inspiring to others.Recently i have made a big decision of my life after 3 big hard hits on my emotion.Amazingly my life change and i could walk and go out to my clients with my soulmate Philip.Tomorrow is the result of my blood test to see if my adrenal glands are awaken from coma.I would like to assure you due to my experience you will feel and be different onch you make a decision.Hope you find courage to change and happiness will follow.Blessings and Peace.

Hi Sara.I am still seeing a psychiatrist for the last 5 yrs after my diagnosis of adrenal insufficiency.This health challenge of mine has other attachments like diabetes,HBP,High cholesteral,odesity(taking steriod)and my osteoarthritis of 31 yrs.4 times of knee replacement was not successful over 5 yrs.My life since a child was tormenting and tramatic.i shared in my stories on EP and have since been inspired and inspiring to others.Recently i have made a big decision of my life after 3 big hard hits on my emotion.Amazingly my life change and i could walk and go out to my clients with my soulmate Philip.Tomorrow is the result of my blood test to see if my adrenal glands are awaken from coma.I would like to assure you due to my experience you will feel and be different onch you make a decision.Hope you find courage to change and happiness will follow.Blessings and Peace.

That my problem is finding something important to really matters to me. I have been struggling with depression and social anxiety which has prevented me from taking steps to what would really fulfill me and add meaning to my life. For many years, I have been searching for meaning and purpose in my life, but have not found it due to my mental health issues.

Hi Sara, I can understand loneliness, because heck I have been alone for most of my life. Find what matters to you he most and go after. What goals are meaningful to you? What kind of legacy would you like to leave behind and what makes you feel fulfilled, break it up into small steps and go after it.

You have to decide what wil make you happy and go for it.