My Life Feels Like It Has Passed Me By
My life feels like it has passed me by. Years ago I was seeing a male psychiatrist and this is what he told me. your life has been passing you by. I believed him, because when I look back on my life I have not accomplished anything. When I was young teenager sitting in one of my classes just off daydreaming of what my future would be. All I could dream about was getting married to the man of my dreams, have a comfortable home and have a child, but the only part of my dream that came true was I did get married to my boyfriend of 5 years of having a serious relationship. But it ended there I never had a child. I had a job, but lost my job. Moved around too much and was always having to start over new again. Ten years later I found another job only to be let go 6 months later. During those years no matter how many self-help groups and years of therapy I had wasn't enough to help me with what I was going to do with my life. I remember hearing what do you want to do when you grow-up once in my life, but was already an adult. These days, I just sit at home wondering what I can do so that the rest of my life doesn't pass me by.
For many years, I have been doing some soul searching and wanting to find meaning and purpose to my lonely and isolating life. I am now in my mid-fifties I know life doesn't end there. I am somewhat shy and a passive person and not being able to assert myself to get what I want. I can also be sensitive to what other people say to me, but then sometimes it helps me to see how I can improve myself.