Disturbing, Depressing, & Lonely Dreams

im sorry but these sound like stress dreams.... it sounds like your mind is so stressed all the time that its making that situation in your dreams too!

I know, right!



To me, that actually makes it easier for me to not get 'caught up' in their opinions and judgments - knowing their insight is impaired, and they just have no concept of the bigger picture.



It is tough, growing in a family of such people, though, isn't it.... makes breaking free (at least, emotionally) essential!



She, btw. ;-)

I'm glad. :) and you're welcome!

Completely. You're right on. I don't think I even have the option anymore. I feel like I'm the living dead. I don't want to feel this way everyday. I will try to put it aside. I am gonna be conscious of it!! I will take control of my fate! LOL.



I'm so glad I could even express this. I feel a lot better than before. Thank you for being understanding :o)

nope... it's a work in progress....



I get what you mean though..... and I understand the frustration.



I suppose, also, being mindful of the moment helps... I think I may've said (possibly in a different story) before, that just the recognition that the energy/thoughts/emotions are coming from the other person/people, helps... it's hard... especially on the computer, because you can feel without the face, and get confused and overwhelmed because of that.



I'm not practised enough to have really any control or even true clarity... I tried to ignore it for too long - not a good idea, btw. :)



What I mean... (after all the talking AROUND the point)... is: if you know and recognise that the energy is there, but not your own, you can kind of place it aside, instead of being consumed..... am I making sense???

I agree wholeheartedly! It's just aggravating! I try to smile & pretend things are the way they are, but I just want to shake them! Maybe it's because I'm an empath (impaired one), & I don't know how to block energy. I try, but it's just overwhelming because I see. feel, hear everything! Argh. Peoples' negativity/ignorance has brought my spirit down many times. I'm sure you mastered the art of energy blocking :)

It's funny how people see what they want to see... I still get dumbfounded at the complete 'miss' people constantly make, when they talk like they know me... but could be speaking in tongues, for all the sense they make!!



It's almost as if there's another dimension, obvious to me, that most of the rest of the world just can't see - even though it's RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEIR NOSES!!!!!



This is really where accepting that those people are just 'blind' (so to speak), helps, because I'm honestly not sure they have the capacity to be anything other than zombie sheep. It's scary, though.



Now I'm rambling on with nonsense!



I must say, though, that you don't need others' acceptance to be you... you are you already...

Thank you! Everytime I tried to express my feelings about something people around me just don't understand & they seemed so puzzled seeing how bothered I was/am. Then I start feeling worse because no one understands what I'm saying. This one "friend" would tell me just to stop thinking & go shopping, lol. That's going to solve everything, ha!!!! :-|

I started off thinking... "join the club"



But as I read on, I realised you were right before... about us thinking very alike.... only, I also think we must've had VERY similar upbringings....(if you dare to call it that)



You didn't bore me and you made MUCH sense.... I nearly had a breakdown, doing the very thing you're describing... and now... I'm learning to be me, despite everyone else's views... and the more steps I take, the less their 'prying eyes' and opinions seem to matter.



I want to feel free to be completely me, I still can't even quite imagine it, but I can almost taste it!



Keep going..... it's going to happen!

Sounds pretty on point! Most of my dreams are like this. I can't explain it, but there is this side of me that just wants to do what I want to do. I still am trying to figure what it is I really want, but if I do...I have this fear that I will have no one there. I have issues with trusting people. I never felt loved as a child so, I feel like I will just disappoint people around me or push myself too left of everything. I'm an extremely idealistic person who envisions everything. I just don't feel like I am understood so, I can't express my ideas, thoughts, passions. How can I be myself when everyone else thinks so differently? I can accept differences, but everything feels foreign or like an act. I have my real self & my fake self. "Fake-self dichotomy created and maintained through organizational talk and practices and, in turn, serves as a constitutive discourse that produces four subject positions with both symbolic and material consequences: strategized self-subordination, perpetually deferred identities, "auto-dressage," and the production of "good little copers".

I hope I didn't go on & bore you. Lol. Does that make sense?

The school dream... you're a creative soul trapped, confused and alone in a sea of squares who just have no idea.....



The last dream... in your daggy clothes.... hiding lest someone see you without your facade.... the most scary.....

It is weird when you wake up from those really 'real' dreams!



I think the public toilet dream is the most clear...all the toilets covered with OTHER people's (excuse language) crap... having to go along with the best option... (which is still unacceptable for YOU).... then having trouble even doing that... because everyone's waiting and watching in anticipation,



Disgusted by the idea of 'following suit'



Embarrassed to be you.... nervous about the prying eyes...





What do you think???

Hmm, interesting. I do feel that way. I mean I want to show myself, but the people around me are the complete opposite of me & I always feel uncomfortable. For the last couple of years...I just been expressing myself more. It's a good feeling, but there's so much more to me that I feel I have yet to show.



The dreams make me feel like crap afterwards, but it's a real feeling when I am in the dream. Very alone, wanting to escape, etc.



Can you go more in detail with what you said? It's been driving me bonkers!

I'd say you're feeling entrapped by your embarrassment.



You're very nervous about the idea of people seeing the 'real' you.



How would YOU feel about unzipping and stepping out as your fantastic self? Just wondering...



:)

maybe as a quick thought they mean deep down from what you have said that you get embarrassed easily or have been recently.you dont like to be shut in and maybe feeel trapped at the moment you are maybe shy and worry about being the centre of attention .have you gat an event due thats woirrying u.just saying what springs instenly to mind as all dreams mean something.let me know what you think