Difference

I think it all started around the time I entered 6th grade. My mom and dad were fighting more often; louder, more physically, but never directly in front of us. Well, at least of what I know. Back then, the family was really close, talked about anything. Supposedly, my father cheated on my mom. (He currently has 2 kids with her) After the divorce, everyone became distant. My older sister and I avoid my father as much as we can. But for me, it's not just my father, it's everyone. I don't talk to my mother that much, I make up excuses to my dad about not being able to go to his house, my sister and I don't really talk at all. My 2 younger siblings just annoy me. (i think that's normal) Also, since there's no one on my mom's side my age, I'm distant to my relatives as well. But on my dad's side, I have all of my cousins. But I can't see them anymore because of the divorce.
So I'm like a shadow in the family now. My other siblings get along good with my parents, but me. I don't know why I'm like this. I hate my dad, I don't get along with my mom, my older sister could care less, and my little siblings don't understand anything. So, I'm different, what's the problem? I'm not the sociable one, I'm not the pretty one, I'm not the skinny one, so what? Why does i matter to them, when they couldn't stand each other? "You were such an angel when you were little, what happened?" Oh I don't know, maybe because my parents are screwed up!? Uggh I'm just getting aggravated! Anyway, I thank you for taking your time to read this, I just needed to vent on some subjects :D
Allie543 Allie543
18-21, F
Jan 13, 2013