Going No-where

All my life I've been encouraged to put others first. I used to have a hobby which I loved but which took up alot of time and money and confidence which I didn't have, so ended up putting it on hold until things got better. Well now I'm older, more comfortable with who I am, Learnt to drive, have a better paid job, but still my life is on hold as now I take care of my mom who is disabled. It feels like I'm never going to get to live the life I want or by the time I do I'll be too old to make much of it. Dont get me wrong, I love my mom but for once I want to feel like my needs are put first not some-body elses. I know my life is better than what some people endure but it doesn't mean I should not have a life to make up for it does it?