I Hate ItI used to have a happy, fun, positive life. But everything was gone now. My sense of humor and comic character fade away, I fake a smile, I'm always angry and I have no one to talk to. I so miss my childhood where I'm always fun, happy and though we're not rich I feel love anywhere I go. But now it was gone.
Now, I always think about money, money and money. When I started to work at such a young age, 17 to be specific after I quit school, I became like this. I feel insecure and unproductive. I'm 20 now and I feel like I'm left behind, my life is so boring and everything is wrong. Mama called me last night, asking me to come. But now, I am hesitant to go home because everyone will ask me how am I doing and I hate to lie. I don't want to receive any pity from them. They know I'm happy and have an amazing career, but they don't know the truth. I avoid contacting my family and friends because I'm tired of lying. But I guess I cannot hide from them any longer.
RATM1991 18-21, F 4 Responses 1 May 19, 2012