Is This Life?

MY LIFE HAS BEEN GOOD, BUT HAS ALSO BEEN HELL. LETS START OFF LIKE THIS. MY MOM IS 33YRS OLD. SHE WAS IN PRISON 6YRS OF HER LIFE AND OF MINE. I HAVE 2 LIL BROTHERS! ANYWYSS. MY DAD WAS ALSO INCARCERATED FOR 9YRS OF MY LIFE. HE TOLD ME ALL KIND OF PROMISES AND STORIES THAT HE WILL BE HERE IF INEED HIM AND HE ONLY ONE PHONE CALL AWAY!! HE LIED! HE HAS BEEN OUT OF PRISON FOR 2YEARS NOW & THE ONLY THING HE HAS EVER DONE FOR ME WAS BUY ME A PAIR OF $60 SHOES. I LOVE MY DAD BUT HE IS A HORRIBLE "FATHER" ... NOT TO MENTION HE HAS OTHER KIDS BY OTHER WOMEN & HE PAYS DEM WAAAY MORE ATTENTION TO ME. YEA, ITS TRUE HE SHOWS FAVORITISM. DEN ALL OF A SUDDEN ONE DAY IDIDNT HEAR FROM HERE, & STILL HASNT. & HE'S STILL ALIVE BECAUSE MY COUSIN SEE'S HIM EVERYDAY. ANWAYS WY MY MOM WAS LOCKED UP I WAS STAYING WITH MY GRANDMOTHER(MOMS MOM) SHE GAVE ME ALL SHE COULD AND I APPRECIATE EVERY BIT OF IT. NOW I HAVE A JOB ITS LIKE IM ALL ON MY OWN. I CANT EVEN GET 1DOLLAR FROM HER IF IASKED. I DO EVERYTHING ON MY OWN NOW, I PROVIDE FOR MYSELF. MY FAMILY HAS NEVER BEEN CLOSE, WE ALWAYS ARGUING AND FIGHTING. THA ONLY TIME WE COME TOGETHER IS FOR A FUNERAL.
ANWAYS IM NOW 17 AND I HAVE PLACES TO GO, AND THINGS TO DO. I WANT TO WEAR ALL THA TRENDING TOPICS, AND EVEN ALL THE EXPENSIVE SHOES! I CANT WEAR DEM BECAUS IREALLY DIDNT HAVE ANY MONEY, BUT NOW IDO ICAN GO GET IT ALL. BUT I NEED A CAR, AND ITS SAD BECAUSE EVRYTIME IASK MY FAMILY TO TAKE ME SOMEWHERE THEY ARE ALWAYS BITCHING, EVEN TO SCHOOL. MY DADDY PROMISED ME A CAR ON MY 16TH BIRTHDAY... GUESS WHT? HAVENT EVEN SEEN A CAR!!!! ITS HARD, NOBODY WANTS TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME ANYMORE.. NOTHING! BUT IDO EVRYTHING FOR EVRYBODY, IM SICK OF BEING USED. I JUST REALLY NEED HELP, I HAVE HAD THOUGHTS OF RUNNING AWAY, OR KILLING MYSELF. & THTS ONLY PART OF THA STORY, THTS NOT THA WHOLE THING. I HAVE A BOYFRIEND IDO EVERYTHING FOR HIM THT ICAN & HE HASNT DONE ANYTHING FOR ME. NOT THAT INEED HIM BUT DAMN, YOU CAN AT LEAST ASK OR OFFER ME SOMETHING. IM TIRED OF LIVING LIFE. THEY TELL ME EVERYDAY YU NEEDA FIND YU A ******* CAR IM TIRED OF RIPPING AND RUNNING. IMISS OUT ON ALOT OF THINGS BECUS NOBODY WANTS TO TAKE ME ANYWHERE. BUT NOW SINCE IM WORKING, IWILL PUT 100 DOLLARS IN MY SAVINGS ACCOUNT EVERY PAYCHECK AND SAVE UP AND TRY TO GET ME A CAR. I GUESS THIS IS PART OF GROWING UP, BUT IM ONLY GROWING UP, INEED THEM UNTIL IM ABLE TO BE OUT THERE ON MY OWN. BUT IGUESS IM OUT HERE ALREADY AND JUST DNT KNOW. & THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING. I ONLY HAVE LIKE 3 PAIR OF SHOES. & IM SICK OF WEARING THEM BUT YOU KNOW WHT NOONE EVER ASKS ME DO IWANT SOMETHING BUT YET BUYING MY YOUNGER BROTHERS $200 HEADPHONES(BEATS) & ICANT EVEN GET A $40-60 PAIR OF SHOES???? IGUESS IM REALLY ON MY OWN. IDNT MEAN TO SOUND UNGRATEFUL BUT DAMN SOMEBODY COULD HELP ME GET READY FOR THA REAL WORLD, BUT LOOKS LIKE IM IN THIS ALONE!!!
hardlife2012 hardlife2012
36-40
1 Response Nov 30, 2012

Sheesh... It sound like you got handed some crappy cards. I'm sorry bout you're parents treating you like that. As a dad and uncle I could never treat someone like that.
All I can say is keep your head up.....be strong and stay positive.

Save as much money as you can. Pretty soon by the start of summer you'll have $700!! :-)
Open up a bank account...but i wouldn't let them know you have money!

Keep thinking bout tomorrow....where do you wanna be? What do ya want to do? How bout graduation? That kind of stuff.
You can do it :-)