I Don't Know What To BelieveThere are days where I feel like my closest friends really don't care about me or like me. I have slight paranoia, so that's part of it but I've been used and lied to in the past. I get paranoid that that's what my friends are doing, using me. I have no idea what for, there's nothing I can be used for. There are no benefits to being my friend. But I can't help it, it's always there in the back of my mind.
I don't know what to do, I need to be reassured that I'm not going to have to go through the pain of losing friends again.
When I try to talk about how I feel, I feel like I shouldn't be. I feel like I'm not cared about some days. And that simply reinforces the paranoid feelings.
I'm so lost, and feel so...abandoned.
NothingButNumbness 18-21, F 3 Responses 0 Aug 15, 2010