Feel Like I Am Expected To Be Everything To Everyone...But don't get the same back.
My father relies on me too much and expects me to be perfect and I feel I can't show negative emotions around him (I.e, be human) as he can't take it. My mother has always relied on me far too much even as a child in terms of using me as a confident. She is very negative and always worries constantly about the tiniest things, all of which I am expected to listen to and offer advice to.
I also feel like my younger sister depends on me too much and that my parents expect me to care for her despite her being nearly an adult.
Then there's my job in the daycare, it's hard caring for all the kids and all their different needs. Sometimes I feel like everyone there expects me to be superwoman but it's an emotional job and sometimes I am not always coping inside. Not when one is screaming, one is throwing drinks around the floor and another is whining at me.
Sometimes I think I have brought this on myself as I come across as so capable and caring. That's maybe why no-one stops to care for me. But it isn't a nice feeling and if I am being honest, I am starting to feel resentful of holding everyone up.
deleted 26-30 3 Responses 0 Jun 26, 2011