i really want to be free of my so called boyfriend he does not care anyway, i wish it were easy to let him go but i just cannot seem to release that feeling of loving him, it would be a big space in my life. hes always doing something that does not involve me and he is increasingly pushing me out of his life , i guess its my own fault though for revolving my life around him. i mean eighteen months ago noone cared for him , noone was interested in him he was a social outcast and his family just did not give a damn, now hes back on his feet with my unconditional devotion of him ( i helped him quit his drinking , help him reestablish a home, he was street homeless for a while, helped him get contact with his kids again) he just does not need or want me, its horrible to feel unwanted now , well he does not want me as before. its horrid to feel like noone cares, i am not as sociable as he is but am gutted hes no longer the integral part of my life as he was. oh well learnt my lesson , " when you realise your only friend has never been yourself or anyone who cared in the end."