Dead Inside

I am numb. Last night something bad happened and at first i thought  I was angry but I was numb. I felt nothing. I acted like I felt I should have acted, but I was faking it the entire time. This cant be normal...It the worst feeling ever, like a walking dead. I just sit and stare almost robotic like. I live but there is no true life going on.
Thing is I think i love him, I know i love him but there is this disconnesct that makes me wonder if I am even able to feel real feelings. Something isnt connected in my insides...
I have a feeling things will go wrong, the mask is falling apart.

SunnyI SunnyI
22-25, F
5 Responses Feb 7, 2010

I relate to your feelings my friend, for the past 10 hours i've been feeling this way. It sucks.

Thank you oh so much my dear.....you made me smile. Thank you :)

YAY!!

And if it doesn't remember to Love the Breath of Life and Love inside you. Remember that it is beautiful, safe and comforting & can Love and protect you better than anyother creature on this Earth. Connect back to you and everthing will work out...maybe even better than you could ever imagine. Much Love and Many Blessings. BearHugs, livingwell Very Beautiful...thank you! I grew up in a city like that here in OHIO. The people took care of each other in good times and bad and did so much more...you would get tired of reading about it. There were no locked doors, and usually when you came home from church there would be all kinds of food gifts from your neighbors because they had cooked ...too much. We never met strangers in that city as you were always welcome. YAY!! It is nice to know there are still places like that left in the world. Thank you so much for sharing. BearHUGS, livingwell

And if it doesn't remember to Love the Breath of Life and Love inside you. Remember that it is beautiful, safe and comforting & can Love and protect you better than anyother creature on this Earth. Connect back to you and everthing will work out...maybe even better than you could ever imagine. Much Love and Many Blessings. BearHugs, livingwell