Last NightI have a big glorious bed. King size, Big head and foot boards and plenty of pillows. It's one of the few things I have ever purchased that is just for my benefit.
It's funny, to me, that I have such a bed. I have spread completely out and would have little room to share but that happens rarely. I usually sleep touching the edge of the mattress with my knee or elbow, facing away from the unshared side. Somehow, I feel less lonely and sleep better when I can't see how much of the mattress is going to waste.
Last night was a different story. The only comfortable way for me to lay was to face the other side. It was one of those nights that the body was ready to sleep but the mind was not tired in the least. I felt like I was caught in that magical place between awake and sleep where dreams can combine with reality and it's impossible to tell one from the other.
Last night's reality was that I was in bed alone but the shadows cast from the light in the hallway and the pillows strewn on the side opposite me, made me imagine you were in bed with me. I swear I could see the outline of your body under the covers. You were facing away from me. I could see your long hair tied back in a ponytail. I could see the outline of your bare shoulder. I wanted to reach out and touch you but I was afraid that the dream would end and I would never fall asleep so, I just enjoyed the little bit I could. I hoped that you would roll over and reach out for me. I yearned to get closer and feel your body heat.
I hoped that sleep would completely engulf me and I could give into my dream fully but sleep seemed to elude me for a very long time. I'm thankful that you were there to keep me company and make a lonely night in a big bed easier to bear.