My New Home Is a Place Called "Lost"

I don't know where I am; I don't know where I'm going... and, I'm not sure how I'm getting there. I often feel as though I have sunk so far down into the dark, that I can only imagine what I wish the light could look like...

The dark seems to pull me in farther, embrace me a little tighter, and sometimes I am tempted to give in, fall into the dark and be lost forever; but, for whatever reason, I cling to that last little bit of hope, that memory of light, and I keep trying.

Thinking back, I don't know exactly when it was that I lost myself; maybe I was always lost...   I know I'm lost, but I don't think anyone else does; and, I'm not sure I want them to know, because I don't want them to look for me.

So, I walk with the shadows; I hide in the dark. And, I keep looking up, for the light that's been reduced to a starlight twinkle, winking at me, in the dark.

I'm lost.

Magickintheair Magickintheair
4 Responses Aug 30, 2008

I suggest you start by maybe taking a camera around and shot pictures of everyone you see. People like that and ask for copies, so have a Polaroid handy. If a person does not get a picture find them and mail it to them, they will remember your effort. That take care of parties and social. <br />
Also, when at a party, fine the talkers, yappers, but not the jokers, and stand next to them. You will see these people will take interest in you and have you hang around more, especially if you have a camera.

Aw, sorry Sunny... I hope you find her :)

Thank you so much for your comment :) *hugs*

Very well written, and I can also empathize. I think the trick might be to focus on that light enough to let it pull you out.<br />
I don't know where I am or where I'm going either, and right now at this moment, when even tears aren't enough, there must be something else to keep me strong enough to not fall down. I'm not sure what it is yet, but I know that shifting my focus will help me find a better way of doing things. Keep holding on to hope.