My girlfriend of 11 plus years broke up with me 8 months ago. She was the one that I wanted my whole life. She was a sweet, loving woman and I blew it. We have a 10 year old son together and I helped raise 2 of her daughters. God, I miss them all so much. I have our son with me almost 200 miles away. I was given a cancer diagnosis 4 years ago and told that nothing could be done, it was stage IV and I would be gone in a year. So, I didn't even fight it. I sat on my butt and took the pain pills they gave me and she became unhappy. She said I made her feel worthless. I don't know how I did that, because she meant more to me than anyone. She left me for an ex boyfriend. I have our son with me. She has not seen him in 8 months and that's my fault. Her boyfriend's other GF told me that he was very abusive to her children and was a tweaker. I could not allow him to abuse my son. He is my life and the only positive I had left to focus on. I went through the cancer treatment and am in remission now. I still have a ways to go. But I work everyday, and am off all the pain meds. We are doing well, I have a new GF, but it is not the same. I still love my son's mom so much and my heart aches for her. I never hit her or cheated on her, I think she just gave up because she didn't want to see me die. I haven't been as healthy as I am now in years. God I miss her. She was the love of my life, the last person I ever thought would walk away and end up hating me. I would forgive her for anything, because life is way too short to worryabout mistakes. It's all about love. I wish I could turn back the clock and repair whatever it was that wrecked things so quickly after so many good years together. At one point she told me that no one had ever done more for her in her life than I had. And no one ever loved me better than she did, not even close. I miss you baby! I miss the girls and so does your son. I wish I could fix things.
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51-55, M
Aug 19, 2014